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The Invitation- Oriah Mountain Dreamer
It doesn’t interest me what you do for a living. I want to know what you ache for and if you dare to dream of meeting your heart’s longing. It doesn’t interest me how old you are. I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool for love for your dream for the adventure of being alive. It doesn’t interest me what planets are squaring your moon... I want to know if you have touched the centre of your own sorrow if you have been opened by life’s betrayals or have become shrivelled and closed from fear of further pain. I want to know if you can sit with pain mine or your own without moving to hide it or fade it or fix it. I want to know if you can be with joy mine or your own if you can dance with wildness and let the ecstasy fill you to the tips of your fingers and toes without cautioning us to be careful to be realistic to remember the limitations of being human. It doesn’t interest me if the story you are telling me is true. I want to know if you can disappoint another to be true to yourself. If you can bear the accusation of betrayal and not betray your own soul. If you can be faithless and therefore trustworthy. I want to know if you can see Beauty even when it is not pretty every day. And if you can source your own life from its presence. I want to know if you can live with failure yours and mine and still stand at the edge of the lake and shout to the silver of the full moon, “Yes.” It doesn’t interest me to know where you live or how much money you have. I want to know if you can get up after the night of grief and despair weary and bruised to the bone and do what needs to be done to feed the children. It doesn’t interest me who you know or how you came to be here. I want to know if you will stand in the centre of the fire with me and not shrink back. It doesn’t interest me where or what or with whom you have studied. I want to know what sustains you from the inside when all else falls away. I want to know if you can be alone with yourself and if you truly like the company you keep in the empty moments. What you need to know
Name: Meggyo Status: in a relationship Occupation: student at Slippery Rock Unviersity Majors: exercise science and enlgish lit Location: Hershey PA for now Who I am: a ridiculous short girl who is trying to live the most now while looking so eagerly foward to the rest of her life Where I wish I was: in his arms Current question: should I stop wishing for things to go back to how they used to be? Song of the day: ps. if this is austin by Brad Paisley The Dance- OMD
I have sent you my invitation, the note inscribed on the palm of my hand by the fire of living. Don’t jump up and shout, “Yes, this is what I want! Let’s do it!” Just stand up quietly and dance with me. Show me how you follow your deepest desires, spiraling down into the ache within the ache, and I will show you how I reach inward and open outward to feel the kiss of the Mystery, sweet lips on my own, every day. Don’t tell me you want to hold the whole world in your heart. Show me how you turn away from making another wrong without abandoning yourself when you are hurt and afraid of being unloved. Tell me a story of who you are, and see who I am in the stories I live. And together we will remember that each of us always has a choice. Don’t tell me how wonderful things will be . . . some day. Show me you can risk being completely at peace, truly okay with the way things are right now in this moment, and again in the next and the next and the next. . . I have heard enough warrior stories of heroic daring. Tell me how you crumble when you hit the wall, the place you cannot go beyond by the strength of your own will. What carries you to the other side of that wall, to the fragile beauty of your own humanness? And after we have shown each other how we have set and kept the clear, healthy boundaries that help us live side by side with each other, let us risk remembering that we never stop silently loving those we once loved out loud. Take me to the places on the earth that teach you how to dance, the places where you can risk letting the world break your heart. And I will take you to the places where the earth beneath my feet and the stars overhead make my heart whole again and again. Show me how you take care of business without letting business determine who you are. When the children are fed but still the voices within and around us shout that soul’s desires have too high a price, let us remind each other that it is never about the money. Show me how you offer to your people and the world the stories and the songs you want our children’s children to remember. And I will show you how I struggle not to change the world, but to love it. Sit beside me in long moments of shared solitude, knowing both our absolute aloneness and our undeniable belonging. Dance with me in the silence and in the sound of small daily words, holding neither against me at the end of the day. And when the sound of all the declarations of our sincerest intentions has died away on the wind, dance with me in the infinite pause before the next great inhale of the breath that is breathing us all into being, not filling the emptiness from the outside or from within. Don’t say, “Yes!” Just take my hand and dance with me. | If you'll take me... Wednesday. 8.2.06 8:37 pm Have you ever had to taken a turn while you’re driving just to make sure it wasn’t the road you wanted? That’s how I felt. I hadn’t broken things off with you, and yet things still weren’t how I wanted them to be, so since staying didn’t seem to be working, I had to take that turn to see if taking a break WAS the correct direction… and I realized that it wasn’t. I realized what I want and that is to be with you. I realized that being with you through the ups and downs totally outweighs not being with you at all. I had to figure that out for myself, and I am sorry that I was misleading and that I couldn’t stick to one plan. I wanted to hold true to my word. So after I said we would work things out I felt like I had lied, like I had changed the plan on you after I said I wanted a break first. So then I went back to the original plan, and then realized that wasn’t the right way to go either. So now, if you will take me, with mistakes and bad turns and all then I want you. I don’t know what is the best way to go about this… we are about to jump into a relationship that needs development and a lot of effort put into understanding one another. We are also about to jump into a time when things will be changing very fast, and what we learn now won’t help much in three weeks when we go back to campus which won’t help us in two weeks after that when classes start and we’re thrown into work, school and new friends. We’re going to have to adjust a lot during that time and make sure that both our needs are met. One option could be that we do that, we work through almost every possible situation we could be in: long distance, school with not much going on and school with everything going on, and see if even at our fragile state we can make it through without losing hope… or the other option would be to lay low for two months, until we have our routines set up, we know what our lives will hold for us besides our relationship and pick up again then. It is up to you, I owe that to you. Whatever you choose I promise to be honest, letting you know how I feel about things and not wait until one moment to burst. I promise to work as hard as I can to remember to appreciate your way of loving me, and not some idea of how I should be loved. In return I want you to be honest with me, open your heart as much as you did this morning and let me in. That is the Keith I love. 0 Comments.
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