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The Invitation- Oriah Mountain Dreamer
It doesn’t interest me what you do for a living. I want to know what you ache for and if you dare to dream of meeting your heart’s longing. It doesn’t interest me how old you are. I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool for love for your dream for the adventure of being alive. It doesn’t interest me what planets are squaring your moon... I want to know if you have touched the centre of your own sorrow if you have been opened by life’s betrayals or have become shrivelled and closed from fear of further pain. I want to know if you can sit with pain mine or your own without moving to hide it or fade it or fix it. I want to know if you can be with joy mine or your own if you can dance with wildness and let the ecstasy fill you to the tips of your fingers and toes without cautioning us to be careful to be realistic to remember the limitations of being human. It doesn’t interest me if the story you are telling me is true. I want to know if you can disappoint another to be true to yourself. If you can bear the accusation of betrayal and not betray your own soul. If you can be faithless and therefore trustworthy. I want to know if you can see Beauty even when it is not pretty every day. And if you can source your own life from its presence. I want to know if you can live with failure yours and mine and still stand at the edge of the lake and shout to the silver of the full moon, “Yes.” It doesn’t interest me to know where you live or how much money you have. I want to know if you can get up after the night of grief and despair weary and bruised to the bone and do what needs to be done to feed the children. It doesn’t interest me who you know or how you came to be here. I want to know if you will stand in the centre of the fire with me and not shrink back. It doesn’t interest me where or what or with whom you have studied. I want to know what sustains you from the inside when all else falls away. I want to know if you can be alone with yourself and if you truly like the company you keep in the empty moments. What you need to know
Name: Meggyo Status: in a relationship Occupation: student at Slippery Rock Unviersity Majors: exercise science and enlgish lit Location: Hershey PA for now Who I am: a ridiculous short girl who is trying to live the most now while looking so eagerly foward to the rest of her life Where I wish I was: in his arms Current question: should I stop wishing for things to go back to how they used to be? Song of the day: ps. if this is austin by Brad Paisley The Dance- OMD
I have sent you my invitation, the note inscribed on the palm of my hand by the fire of living. Don’t jump up and shout, “Yes, this is what I want! Let’s do it!” Just stand up quietly and dance with me. Show me how you follow your deepest desires, spiraling down into the ache within the ache, and I will show you how I reach inward and open outward to feel the kiss of the Mystery, sweet lips on my own, every day. Don’t tell me you want to hold the whole world in your heart. Show me how you turn away from making another wrong without abandoning yourself when you are hurt and afraid of being unloved. Tell me a story of who you are, and see who I am in the stories I live. And together we will remember that each of us always has a choice. Don’t tell me how wonderful things will be . . . some day. Show me you can risk being completely at peace, truly okay with the way things are right now in this moment, and again in the next and the next and the next. . . I have heard enough warrior stories of heroic daring. Tell me how you crumble when you hit the wall, the place you cannot go beyond by the strength of your own will. What carries you to the other side of that wall, to the fragile beauty of your own humanness? And after we have shown each other how we have set and kept the clear, healthy boundaries that help us live side by side with each other, let us risk remembering that we never stop silently loving those we once loved out loud. Take me to the places on the earth that teach you how to dance, the places where you can risk letting the world break your heart. And I will take you to the places where the earth beneath my feet and the stars overhead make my heart whole again and again. Show me how you take care of business without letting business determine who you are. When the children are fed but still the voices within and around us shout that soul’s desires have too high a price, let us remind each other that it is never about the money. Show me how you offer to your people and the world the stories and the songs you want our children’s children to remember. And I will show you how I struggle not to change the world, but to love it. Sit beside me in long moments of shared solitude, knowing both our absolute aloneness and our undeniable belonging. Dance with me in the silence and in the sound of small daily words, holding neither against me at the end of the day. And when the sound of all the declarations of our sincerest intentions has died away on the wind, dance with me in the infinite pause before the next great inhale of the breath that is breathing us all into being, not filling the emptiness from the outside or from within. Don’t say, “Yes!” Just take my hand and dance with me. | changing like the wind Sunday. 11.27.05 7:01 pm So I should be writing my paper.... yea well I have so far 4 pages of bullshit done... need a break. So I had a good weekend at home. Been a while since i could say that right? ha. Hung out with David A and Li to see RENT which was freakin awesome, went over to TIm's with David to chill... caught up, talked about drinking, Tim's gf, and other such nonesense that is always talked about when Tim is around :P, was supposed to hang out with Ryan but that fell thru the bum, David W kept calling but never picking up when I called back so I missed Neato Burrito :(, Got dinner with Tom, was supposed to hit up the hottub for some girl talk with Li but she didn't call till after my parents were in bed, and spent a lot of time with my dad who actually asked me in one of our car rides to listen to him not as his daughter, but as a psychiatrist.... then he apologized for telling me a lot of what is bothering him and devulging how he really feels, cuz I shouldn't worry, and I am not going to say I wont' worry, because I will, and I felt very... grown up and trust worthy for my dad to have told me that stuff. Then I went to MD...said hi to Grandma Lola, everyone looks good, college is treating Christine and Casey well as far as I could tell. Met the infamous MATT! Played a round of pool, slept on the futon of which Keith and I are still the only couple who has not messed around or had sex on it, ate rice, played Cranium in which everyone's nerves were being tested near the end, and crashed after meeting a few relatives in my pjs and seeing the mom for about 2.5 seconds. Woke up at 6:15am to drive back here... it was a somber drive... but we made it. So I think I've been doing better... I think. I only had one major breakdown and that was after a car incident. I am in control of my emotions, and just do what I used to do when something is bothering me... clam up and shut up I guess is a good description. It's interesting how some things such as passiveness or apologizing are so ingrained into our culture as being things women should do and speak that I find myself doing them more when I am out of my comfort zone... or a bit askewed. Interesting. Anyway, I find myself in a mellow lul, a funk, or a downward swing more often now than before, but I am not as uncontrolabley sinical, and although I can't really snap out of my low times, I am not taking it out on others as much... I think. I just kinda don't talk. We'll see how it progresses. I am trying to get better at a lot of things.. so bare with me. Keith is working so hard, and I hope I can prove I am doing the same soon... kinda frusterating when I can't. For the next three weeks I just need to get thru with really good grades cuz now is the time to make up for slip ups earlier, so that will be causing stress, and along with Americorps stuff... i feel bad that I haven't done anything with HOPE in the office... tomorrow I have two programs tho and then a meeting with my Brit Lit II group for our presentation that is Tues. I also have a human diversity project and a speech next week!!!! I will be looking foward to this weekend, even tho we have an AmeriCorps xmas party Sat night. I started xmas shopping!!! I love it! Not the spending money, but everything else. I hope this Christmas is good...I need a good one, I need a good break... we'll see. Damn, now I have all these songs from RENT stuck in my head, so I better go back to writing this paper shit of bull. 2 Comments. 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