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The Invitation- Oriah Mountain Dreamer
It doesn’t interest me what you do for a living. I want to know what you ache for and if you dare to dream of meeting your heart’s longing. It doesn’t interest me how old you are. I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool for love for your dream for the adventure of being alive. It doesn’t interest me what planets are squaring your moon... I want to know if you have touched the centre of your own sorrow if you have been opened by life’s betrayals or have become shrivelled and closed from fear of further pain. I want to know if you can sit with pain mine or your own without moving to hide it or fade it or fix it. I want to know if you can be with joy mine or your own if you can dance with wildness and let the ecstasy fill you to the tips of your fingers and toes without cautioning us to be careful to be realistic to remember the limitations of being human. It doesn’t interest me if the story you are telling me is true. I want to know if you can disappoint another to be true to yourself. If you can bear the accusation of betrayal and not betray your own soul. If you can be faithless and therefore trustworthy. I want to know if you can see Beauty even when it is not pretty every day. And if you can source your own life from its presence. I want to know if you can live with failure yours and mine and still stand at the edge of the lake and shout to the silver of the full moon, “Yes.” It doesn’t interest me to know where you live or how much money you have. I want to know if you can get up after the night of grief and despair weary and bruised to the bone and do what needs to be done to feed the children. It doesn’t interest me who you know or how you came to be here. I want to know if you will stand in the centre of the fire with me and not shrink back. It doesn’t interest me where or what or with whom you have studied. I want to know what sustains you from the inside when all else falls away. I want to know if you can be alone with yourself and if you truly like the company you keep in the empty moments. What you need to know
Name: Meggyo Status: in a relationship Occupation: student at Slippery Rock Unviersity Majors: exercise science and enlgish lit Location: Hershey PA for now Who I am: a ridiculous short girl who is trying to live the most now while looking so eagerly foward to the rest of her life Where I wish I was: in his arms Current question: should I stop wishing for things to go back to how they used to be? Song of the day: ps. if this is austin by Brad Paisley The Dance- OMD
I have sent you my invitation, the note inscribed on the palm of my hand by the fire of living. Don’t jump up and shout, “Yes, this is what I want! Let’s do it!” Just stand up quietly and dance with me. Show me how you follow your deepest desires, spiraling down into the ache within the ache, and I will show you how I reach inward and open outward to feel the kiss of the Mystery, sweet lips on my own, every day. Don’t tell me you want to hold the whole world in your heart. Show me how you turn away from making another wrong without abandoning yourself when you are hurt and afraid of being unloved. Tell me a story of who you are, and see who I am in the stories I live. And together we will remember that each of us always has a choice. Don’t tell me how wonderful things will be . . . some day. Show me you can risk being completely at peace, truly okay with the way things are right now in this moment, and again in the next and the next and the next. . . I have heard enough warrior stories of heroic daring. Tell me how you crumble when you hit the wall, the place you cannot go beyond by the strength of your own will. What carries you to the other side of that wall, to the fragile beauty of your own humanness? And after we have shown each other how we have set and kept the clear, healthy boundaries that help us live side by side with each other, let us risk remembering that we never stop silently loving those we once loved out loud. Take me to the places on the earth that teach you how to dance, the places where you can risk letting the world break your heart. And I will take you to the places where the earth beneath my feet and the stars overhead make my heart whole again and again. Show me how you take care of business without letting business determine who you are. When the children are fed but still the voices within and around us shout that soul’s desires have too high a price, let us remind each other that it is never about the money. Show me how you offer to your people and the world the stories and the songs you want our children’s children to remember. And I will show you how I struggle not to change the world, but to love it. Sit beside me in long moments of shared solitude, knowing both our absolute aloneness and our undeniable belonging. Dance with me in the silence and in the sound of small daily words, holding neither against me at the end of the day. And when the sound of all the declarations of our sincerest intentions has died away on the wind, dance with me in the infinite pause before the next great inhale of the breath that is breathing us all into being, not filling the emptiness from the outside or from within. Don’t say, “Yes!” Just take my hand and dance with me. | just me Wednesday. 10.12.05 8:29 pm My head is pounding in a way I dont remember it ever doing before... my eyes hurt, my heart hurts, my head hurts, my legs and knees and whole being hurts. These are the days I escaped from, why am I back here again? Why is there a coffee mug that I bought someone stil sitting on my desk, why is the card I wrote amanda still not sent out, why have I not done any homework or office hours all week, why did I not want to get out of bed or even take upon the world this morning...? Perhaps it is the weather, probably the fact that I haven't been to the gym, maybe the pill, mostly... the person I have become. The selfish, unfocused, unmotivated person. I want to go home... even tho part of my home is right down the street in 109 Founders Hall, but I need the home where I can do nothing, and drive, and not worry... but I know that that home has changed too and my mom is working and my dad isn't, and my brother is sleeping in my bed and I will end up on the couch. I hate that my insides literally burn and feel like an electric current is going thru every inch of me until my eyes leak tears in buckets silently... then uncontrolably because that is the only way I can express myself anymore. Why? God my head hurts... I hate taking meds but lately I have been too weak to not do it anymore either. I have absolutely no tolerence for anything not comfortable.. when the hell did that happen?! I do one squat and I can't walk for a week, wtf. I am so out of shape, I am so mentally gone, and all I do is complain... and now the complaining has just shifted to walking around so evidently distraut that I guess everyone can tell cuz they all ask me what is wrong. hmph. I never knew my face was so descriptive, too bad it can't convey some of the things I can't put into words... I finally had a good time with Katie and Kate tonight from before dinner to right after dinner.. many laughs and it felt like old times. Now it's over for the most part. I shouldve gone to the gym when I could've but my damn head... not like i used to use that as an excuse before, it probably would've done me good. It is 9:42 and Keith hasn't called but we had a heart to heart last night... and he said he was going to go to the gaming night tonight after work, so I know if I call he either won't pick up cuz it's on silent, wont' hear it, or will be perturbed I am calling... and if he doesnt' pick up when I call I will be worried he is stranded on the side of the road of mugged by some dude who wants books cuz he is closing by himself tonight. So, I won't call. damn there he is... freakin called. *sigh* I dunno what else to do about this headache, I really want to go workout... my whole body aches. I need a hottub, haha. Katie and I got to talking about careers and the fact that she might change her major, but shhh and how life should work out that we just end up where we belong for various reasons and to just have a general direction as to where we want to go. I need to majorly organize all my materials for all my clubs/jobs etc this weekend. Hopefully I can get caught up. 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