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The Invitation- Oriah Mountain Dreamer
It doesn’t interest me what you do for a living. I want to know what you ache for and if you dare to dream of meeting your heart’s longing. It doesn’t interest me how old you are. I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool for love for your dream for the adventure of being alive. It doesn’t interest me what planets are squaring your moon... I want to know if you have touched the centre of your own sorrow if you have been opened by life’s betrayals or have become shrivelled and closed from fear of further pain. I want to know if you can sit with pain mine or your own without moving to hide it or fade it or fix it. I want to know if you can be with joy mine or your own if you can dance with wildness and let the ecstasy fill you to the tips of your fingers and toes without cautioning us to be careful to be realistic to remember the limitations of being human. It doesn’t interest me if the story you are telling me is true. I want to know if you can disappoint another to be true to yourself. If you can bear the accusation of betrayal and not betray your own soul. If you can be faithless and therefore trustworthy. I want to know if you can see Beauty even when it is not pretty every day. And if you can source your own life from its presence. I want to know if you can live with failure yours and mine and still stand at the edge of the lake and shout to the silver of the full moon, “Yes.” It doesn’t interest me to know where you live or how much money you have. I want to know if you can get up after the night of grief and despair weary and bruised to the bone and do what needs to be done to feed the children. It doesn’t interest me who you know or how you came to be here. I want to know if you will stand in the centre of the fire with me and not shrink back. It doesn’t interest me where or what or with whom you have studied. I want to know what sustains you from the inside when all else falls away. I want to know if you can be alone with yourself and if you truly like the company you keep in the empty moments. What you need to know
Name: Meggyo Status: in a relationship Occupation: student at Slippery Rock Unviersity Majors: exercise science and enlgish lit Location: Hershey PA for now Who I am: a ridiculous short girl who is trying to live the most now while looking so eagerly foward to the rest of her life Where I wish I was: in his arms Current question: should I stop wishing for things to go back to how they used to be? Song of the day: ps. if this is austin by Brad Paisley The Dance- OMD
I have sent you my invitation, the note inscribed on the palm of my hand by the fire of living. Don’t jump up and shout, “Yes, this is what I want! Let’s do it!” Just stand up quietly and dance with me. Show me how you follow your deepest desires, spiraling down into the ache within the ache, and I will show you how I reach inward and open outward to feel the kiss of the Mystery, sweet lips on my own, every day. Don’t tell me you want to hold the whole world in your heart. Show me how you turn away from making another wrong without abandoning yourself when you are hurt and afraid of being unloved. Tell me a story of who you are, and see who I am in the stories I live. And together we will remember that each of us always has a choice. Don’t tell me how wonderful things will be . . . some day. Show me you can risk being completely at peace, truly okay with the way things are right now in this moment, and again in the next and the next and the next. . . I have heard enough warrior stories of heroic daring. Tell me how you crumble when you hit the wall, the place you cannot go beyond by the strength of your own will. What carries you to the other side of that wall, to the fragile beauty of your own humanness? And after we have shown each other how we have set and kept the clear, healthy boundaries that help us live side by side with each other, let us risk remembering that we never stop silently loving those we once loved out loud. Take me to the places on the earth that teach you how to dance, the places where you can risk letting the world break your heart. And I will take you to the places where the earth beneath my feet and the stars overhead make my heart whole again and again. Show me how you take care of business without letting business determine who you are. When the children are fed but still the voices within and around us shout that soul’s desires have too high a price, let us remind each other that it is never about the money. Show me how you offer to your people and the world the stories and the songs you want our children’s children to remember. And I will show you how I struggle not to change the world, but to love it. Sit beside me in long moments of shared solitude, knowing both our absolute aloneness and our undeniable belonging. Dance with me in the silence and in the sound of small daily words, holding neither against me at the end of the day. And when the sound of all the declarations of our sincerest intentions has died away on the wind, dance with me in the infinite pause before the next great inhale of the breath that is breathing us all into being, not filling the emptiness from the outside or from within. Don’t say, “Yes!” Just take my hand and dance with me. | attempting an insightful entry... Thursday. 6.30.05 10:41 pm .. not tired.. ancy cuz I haven't been to the gym in a WHILE, wasn't even up to snuff really talking to Katie when she called, just kinda.. blah. sorry future roommate (Amanda, u will ALWAYS be MY ROOMIE, so Katie is now coined "future roommate... or mate with whom I shall live") brrr just got cold. So far, not so insightful... This summer.... I want it to be over for the most part. Sure I will miss my parents at school, but I won't miss many ppl here in Hershey. We're drifting, or maybe I am the one drifting away from them while they stand still. The only ppl I can call up at any point in time and see what they are upto are Li and David.. but still, they are busy with each other, so I rarely hear from them anymore either most days. They are both working more than I am, David is taking class now too. (just finished MY class today woohoo!) I could hang out with Court and all them, but they don't approve of anything or anyone in my life, so why bother, when the things they would like to pretend really aren't worth shit are wayyy more important than they are these days (like Keith, li and david). Kinda sucks when people hold grudges and can't grow up... I think they are afraid of being wrong, of admitting that they lost something, of feeling pain for once. It's easier to be a cocky bitch or asshole than it is to feel most of the time.... well not for me, but I hear it is anyway. My mom and I went grocery shopping today (mother daughter bonding time), and she was telling me about working for her bosss... and how even the customers realize how tough she is on her helping staff. So we were talking about how being professionally civil or polite seems to be a missing lesson in today's day and age. People just don't know how to be tactful and considerate, jumping to conclusions all the time, n of course.. blaming everyone else! My mom was saying how she is astounded that her boss talks to her like that and stuff.. and I relayed a conversation I had had with Keith about how I notice some of my old friends treating each other, and that that was a main reason why I couldn't be around them anymore... I could never imagine EVER treating someone who I respected or even was an aquaintance with like these ppl treat others, I wouldn't even treat my enemies like that. It really is sad how some people don't have the decency we all thought was normal. I am happy I was brought up the way I was.. and as Keith mentioned in his blog, there ARE some wholesome ppl out there; such as the Maryland gang, SRU gang (whom I miss all them sooooo much), my parents, and a few stragglers in Hershey, Amherst and Belchertown. It really is amazing how u can form two lives, one at school and one here... unfortunately for me, I am not so happy with the one here anymore. Trips to Maryland do the soul some good (even when Mike tells it to rain on the bday girl's soul ;) ) I have a problem, prolly more than one, but I am thinking of just one right now. haha. Whenever I eat gummy something I think of when my roomie told me, "that has the shit I wax my car with in it!" mmm car wax. It boggles my mind how we are all not dying yet from these toxins and random shit we are putting into our bodies. Talking about food.. meat is so expensive! I will prolly live quite close to being vegetarian when I am on my own just because of the COST of meat these days. And they think ppl are turning vegetarian for health reasons.. more like for bank reasons. pfft. I think it'd be cool to have a rice cooker.. definitely mroe convenient than the stove version cuz u have to watch it all the time and reheat it later. shit. forgot to take pill. If it is not within eyesight I forget, unless it's food... then it can be anywhere and even when I want to forget, I remember. 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