I want to start off by saying this will probably be my last entry about professional wrestling for a while. The situation that has come about the past couple days has caused me lots of emotional stress and has me questioning everything, including my very own existence.

A few days ago I was ready to right up my follow up report on Vengeance, the WWE Pay Per View from this past Sunday. Monday night I found out that Chris Benoit and his family was dead. I tried for 3 hours to fight the tears to back so my family would not see as I watched the tribute on Raw. After the show I drove around and had an emotional conversation with a friend of mine about it. I went to bed that writing this blog in my head. It was going to be a long tribute to the memory of Chris Benoit, one of the greatest wrestlers ever. I would right about the first time I saw him on the Clash of the Champions, him joining the 4 Horsemen, him winning the WCW title only the throw it in the trash and jump to the WWE and then him winning at Wrestlemania. I wrote it word for word in my head that night before falling asleep, the next day the world was yanked out from under me.

I slept in late. I was depressed about the news I had gotten last night. I got in my car and headed out, preparing to publish the blog entry I had gone over in my head the night before. I called the same friend that I spoke to the previous night and he gave me the news. Double Homicide – Suicide. I didn’t want to believe him. I raced to the closet computer I could find and I saw the words "Shocking" and "Tragic."


How could I man that I looked up to do something like this? Many fans like myself have been asking that question along with several others. My main question is this: Why would a man who was so passionate about this business do something like this that has done nothing but make the entire industry look bad? This is a man who gave up his first marriage and had a strained relationship with his oldest children because he was so dedicated to professional wrestling. I would say that profession wrestling was his one true love. I can’t believe he would do something that would make the world look at professional wrestling worse than it already does.

Professional wrestling has always been the bastard child of sports and entertainment. Anyone in the main stream media does whatever they can to take a cheap shot and run down this media any chance they get. And with this incident they are taking as many as they can. Why Chris? Why?

I’m still in shock as I write this. At this point I don’t know my right from my left or which way is up or down. I have questioned everything. I have gone over every possible scenario. I have no answers for anything. If time heals all wounds, I wish I could turn the clock faster and this would all be over with.

I had so much I wanted to say when I sat down to type this out, but I’m thought it so much over the past few days, I don’t want to think about it anymore. I found a good article from that features some of the same thoughts I that had on the subject at this link.



To change the subject a little, I hate the Rihanna song Umbrella. As a matter of fact I hate most of her songs and I don’t really like her that much. Well the former lead singer of one of my favorite local bands recently did a cover of it. You can hear it here at his crappy myspace - click here.

I was really shocked too, but if what they are saying is true, that's what steroids can do to a person.
» Southern on 2007-06-28 02:12:10

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