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OMG! I seriously cannot believe that sojourn will be here in a week. I am very stressed about it and I hope that things work out well. Tomorrow I'm going to try and fly down to the bay area and get stuff from my other house for sojourn, cause i need like warmer jackets and long sleeve shirts. Most of which i have here but there are still a few thing i need to get from, "the other room" of mine, which no longer feels like its even mine. Anyway, I turned in all of my final projects today at school. It was really weird feeling like i actually got everything done. At mills, i was always busy thinking of a reason as to why i didnt have one of my assignments, or how i could still turn something in late without losing points, or knowing that i did a half ass job and that im not going to get a good grade. What sucks the most is that altho i didnt do crap at mills, and my grades were terrible, my grades here are awesome and i have practically 100's in everything, but they have to add in my grades from mills too, so now my grades dropped, and they probably are only a little bit higher than what i would have gotten at mills in the first place. But oh well, once i come back from sojourn, i get a clean slate, no numbers to add in, and i can raiseup that last and final GPA. Yes, alisha will graduate high school having a high GPA, most likely a 4.0 which is exciting but not as fulfilling because at mills you actually have to work hard to get all a's. At this school, its really nto hard at all...so you know, whatever, but it will higher my overall high school GPA which will look better when i actually apply to college. I think right now i have about a 3.3, so with that averaging out with what i have right now, i will have maybe a 3.4 or even 3.5.
So, when i come back i have to look for a job, i need money. Once i get money, im allowed to buy a car and my mom will help pay insurance, and she said she will ask my dad for money to help pay also, but i still have to pay for gas. I think that's fair. At least i'll get some help with a car since it is kinda hard to do the whole thing myself without having any money left over for once i graduate. I really just have to make sure i dont go crazy and buy myself stuff everytime i get a paycheck, cause then the point of having a good paying job wont benefit me at all. Lol.
I dont really know what im talking about right now I think these are all just general thoughts in my head about what is going on, what im thinking about, what i have to do. Oh, speaking of stuff i have to do. I need to make an appt when i come back from sojourn to see a dermatologist, cause my skin is acting crazy. I can never tell when im going to break out. I can wash my face once a day, and its bad, or twice a day and its bad or soemtimes good. and sometimes, i wont wash my face for a day and it will get better, or soemtimes worse. It is very unpredictable. All i know is, this face is uuugly with all these scars and marks and what not, and i want it to go away, before it gets so bad that i have to wear cover up makeup when im older because my face doesn't look clean without it. That would seroiusly suck balls. Yes, oh yea, that was one of my new years resolutions, good job alisha, you remembered. hah.
IN other news, there is none. Im so silly. Ciara has a game today, i hope they do good. She drove herself to the game at sequoia, i hope she didnt get lost. It's funny thinking that she drives herself everywhere now, especially because now i have that fear of someone hitting her...or her losing control if its rainy and slippery. I mean, i always have those kinds of fears even with myself. Especially since shes young, and little, and sooo cute. I wouldn't want to lose her to someone who was stupid and hit her. I won't think about that tho, i'll stay positive and just let her know that i care and that i cherish everyday that i have with her, i dotn want to take advantage of the fact that she loves me, that would be the worst thing to do to someone, and yourself really. So yes, my baby is a new driver on the road, learning her way around, probably getting attention, and enjoying life, im happy for her. I know how bad she wants this and hopefully the novelty of it will wear off sooner rather than later, that way it wont be such a big deal. Plus, by the time she is legally allowed to drive other people, it will be close to graduation and i may be moving back sometime soon, so she wont have to drive all the way up here to see me. All i know, is that once i get my car, im gonna have trouble with insurance once i move out, cause its gonna be all on me to find a good job, stay strong in school, and have a place to live. Life is going to grab onto me and im gonna try not to get swallowed in a life of debt, that. would. suck.
So, i think im done blabbing for now. I seriously cannot wait until sojourn, im so excited, yet for some reason incredibly nervous at the same time.
Alish