Somehow signals got crossed and instead of hanging out with Nicholas and Joanna on Friday night, we all ended up drinking and smoking out at Jenny's. I was afraid of another Jenny/Nick blow-out but everyone was on their best behavior. I texted Nick right before we got to Jenny's and was like, "Umm... I didn't know we were going to go to Jenny's..." He called me right back and apologized because he assumed the "we" I was talking about (as in what I said to him: "'We' are going to PB tonight.") was Jenny and I, not Jo and I. He felt bad for misunderstanding. But everything went okay... except for the fact that I ended up a little sick from all the alcohol and nicotine and THC. Oops. At least I made it home okay.

Saturday, we tried to make something happen again. He was on the radio for an hour for this "Coup d'Etat Weekend" in which the radio station gets listeners to send in playlists and they get to introduce them on the air and stuff. Pretty cool. Nick called me up literally right afterwards and was all "Bro--did you hear me on air!?" Of course I did, you dork! He wanted to try to hang out again and I told him I'd be at the Del Mar Fair with Joanna, but he never actually made it because he was exhausted from the night before and from all the excitement in the morning.

Which brings us to today, which was very much a success in the meeting-up department. He called me up while I was taking a nap and said, "I'm on the way over to near where you live, wanna hang out?" I peeled myself out of bed and quickly got dressed. It was a beautiful day today, so I couldn't spend it all inside. We went to get some sushi and some sake, talked a lot about our families and people we knew. It was a good day for the friendship, especially when we both realized that we were both perfectly content sitting around in silence and just being there with whoever we were with and enjoying their company. This runs in stark contrast to how Jenny operates, where she feels like she needs to do shit to enjoy time with friends. It's nice to have someone laid back to hang out with, especially when life gets so tiresome that all you wanna do is have a beer, smoke some pot, talk, and vegetate.

After sushi, we went to Costco and picked up the free samples and shit. It was really funny because a few months ago, this was one of those activities I imagined for our future together: the both of us strolling into a store, picking up stuff we needed for our place, trying out the different samples and just figuring out the domestic stuff. Yeah, that won't happen now, but it was cool to just get a taste of it--like a free sample of something, without any obligation to buy the whole 10-pound bag.

All in all, I'm very happy with how I'm dealing with this. There were no overwhelming urges to give him road head, to pull him into the bathroom at the sushi place for a quickie... it was just two friends, enjoying a lazy Sunday afternoon.

And it would be a lie to say I wouldn't have it any other way, but given the circumstances, this is probably the best option I'll get. And I'm fine with that.

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