"What kind of person are you?"

"What do you think are your most notable qualities?"

"What do you like?"

Man, I have no idea how to answer these kinds of questions. When asked about my interests I generally have to refer back to old lists I've made on sites like these. I don't really feel connected to any of those things anymore, it's just something to tell people.

"What are your favorite movies?"

...Let me refer back to the document that has the movies I've watched listed in it, so I can mention a few. I can't remember what I like off the top of my head.

"What's your favorite food?"

I really don't know. There's nothing that I can just eat indefinitely without getting sick of it. Sometimes it's hard for me to even remember foods I generally like.

There is this guy talking to me who just keeps asking me questions, interview-style, and it's kind of awkward. I mean, normal conversations shouldn't be structured like that anyway, but it's kind of worse because I just have no idea how to answer most of his questions. He asked me if I had ever used a programming language, and I told him I'm not really a computer person, though my boyfriend is, and he asked what kind of person I am, then.

Man, don't ask me that stuff. I don't know. A creative person? Something like that? I think I was a creative person at some point, maybe I still am.

If I try to ask myself who I am I can't get a clear answer and it just interferes with my ability to function on a daily basis, because then I get wrapped up wondering and it's confusing and stressful.

In a weird way I actually miss the haze of derealization that I used to live in, because even if it felt like reality was mostly fog with some solid parts, at least it felt like something. Everything is "clear" now, but in a really insubstantial way. It's just clear... nonsense now, whereas the haze used to obscure a lot of that nonsense or at least make it feel like the haze was the reason for the nonsense.

Even though I dislike the concept of it, sometimes it seems like the only way for me to go through life right now is to just not think about things, only do them. It's not even an "ignorance is bliss" thing... I guess it's more like, I have a limited amount of energy, and I don't want to use up what I have on ponderings that go in circles or hit dead ends. (I'm not talking so much about questions like "How can I be a better person"... more like "Who am I" etc. As much as I've thought about the latter in the past, it just isn't helpful or meaningful to me anymore)

My memory is good and terrible at the same time. I dunno what's going on there.

I also dislike these kinds of questions. Sounds challenging... like a Nutang challenge.
» Midnight on 2013-09-30 02:23:42

Self identity is tricky. I think everyone should discover who they are, or who they want to be, but I don't think being ever-pensive about anything, especially about oneself, is very healthy. Consideration for others is terribly low in society, it seems. And it kind of makes me sad, and a little mad sometimes.

I usually have trouble with the "What ___ do you like?" I can usually better tell you a few things I DON'T like before things I know I really like. Or better yet, start naming off things and I will tell you if I like it or not. Yeah?
» invisible on 2013-09-30 08:17:05

invisible's answer was pretty neat.

All I'll say is that, the last time we had a project on that, where we had to give people some idea of who we were, I talked about who I was, on tape, on five different, random days, and every day was different but just as correct. The whole project ended with the simple idea that we are complex and ever-changing, and that's all we really ever are.

Life is composed with very minimal order. Trying to pin down who we are is like shooting an arrow at a gnat from a train at full speed.

re: Then you already have the right idea. That's a very good sign.
» Unicornasaurus on 2013-10-01 12:35:21

I have a limited amount of energy, and I don't want to use up what I have on ponderings that go in circles or hit dead ends.
I CONCUR.



I have no idea who i am btw.
» undisputed on 2013-10-03 05:01:43

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