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Not that it matters. I probably wasn't missed! But alas! life goes on!

So much has happened in the past year and half since I posted! I don't know if I can hit it all, but I sure will try.

So the last time I wrote I was depressed and still unemployed after looking for work for almost a year. My supposed "best friend" had basically separated herself from me...and I still don't know why. I got a newer car, cause of all the problems with the previous two. I had a horrible 30th birthday, but the best 31st! All while I was going through a major life change. I think that about summarizes it.

So I am no longer unemployed. In fact, I have been gainfully employed for almost a year. Last February, I started as a contractor for the Federal Government. I am a CAD/CIFM Specialist for GSA in all federal building and leased buildings for Region 8. Basically, I do all the CAD work necessary for our region. It started out as 16 hours a week, but has since morphed into a full-time 32 hour position. I absolutely love this job! It doesn't get much better than this! Let's hope that with all the government budget constraints, that my job is safe...but you never know.

I said earlier that my supposed best friend basically separated herself from me. We were long in trouble before Sept. 2009. She had pulled away LONG before that, but kept up appearances. I still don't know what a lot of it is about, since she won't talk at all. Through all the arguments and silence I realized how much of my life was dedicated to her and I found myself to be pretty pathetic. I would wait at home for her to come and decided to go places with me...sometimes I would wait all weekend and nothing would happen. I have changed and come to realize that I could wait my whole life....or I can get out there and do things...with people that want to do them with me! There is so much more to the story...but I am not getting in to detail. Mostly it was jealousy, anger and hearsay by her that ended this. So I moved on. The only thing I miss or regret about the whole situation is my godson. Greg never deserved any of this and I miss him terribly! I love him. But, he probably has no clue who I am today. It has been almost a year since I saw the little guy. It still pains me to this day.

Now my major life change. I am getting married in September 2011!!!! I found the love of my life! and FINALLY, I came out as a bisexual woman in November 2009. I also think this is why my supposed ex-best friend is no longer talking to me. She is a bit homophobic and jealous of my girlfriend. She can deny it all she wants, but actions speak louder than words. My girlfriend and I have been together since March 12 of this year. It has been the most exciting and rewarding time of my life. It truly doesn't get better than this. She is my angel! We are truly made for each other and we are SOUL MATES! I never thought that love like this existed, but now I know it does! I am really HAPPY! I am finally happy! We are looking for a home together and will be moving in together soon! We also plan on trying to have kids early next year...but that depends on my body and what it tells me! LOL I am sooooo in love!

Other than that, my life hasn't changed much. I am still the same laid-back person I have always been! I am getting more involved in my nature photography and I also sell Partylite candles. 2010 has treated me very well! I have a loving fiancee, great parents, and a fantastic family! I had a surpise birthday getaway for my birthday present. My girlfriend took me back to her home of Gunnison, CO. It was so amazingly beautiful! I took a ton of pictures!!!!! It was the best birthday ever! Hiking, walking the streets...the mountain air! LOVED IT!!!

I should be back to blogging every now and then. Especially when something new is happening.