So I have come to a great understanding. I am unhappy and a little depressed. SO before I loathe in self pity I have decided that I need to change.

First I am going to get change the nature of my relationships with the people around me. If they make me depressed then I am going to modify our relationship or get rid of it all together. I need to stop being a doormat and seeing hope in everyone. Cause if a person is an ass to me now they will continue to be because I won't say anything. That is going to change.

Second...I really don't like my job...and possibly my career choice. First I am going to stay with my job and make it the best I can. I am going to work my butt off till at least I am there for one year. I am going to set new goals for this job and make it more competitive and interesting for me. While I am doing this I will think about what I love to do and figure out how to make a career out of it....or at least make money from it so I can live.

Get more hobbies. There are so many things I enjoy, but I never do them. That needs to stop. And I am also going to start to take better care of my body...so that my mind can free up too. I am not saying that I am going to lose a ton of weight or that I am going to exercise everyday...but at least now I am thinking about it.

This all came about because I realized that I had attained all the goals I had set for myself previously. And I have started to compile a list of some new goals. One of them was to be completely happy in what I think or do. So one of the ways to change it is to do what I said above. I know this will take time...but with a light at the end of the tunnel I can move towards that.

Now with all that said I have to make a commitment to stay with it through the end. That is the hardest task of all.

those are great goals to have...good luck!

btw...i think you file a complaint with the FTC against those attornies as they are debt collectors
» lazypuppy on 2007-02-28 09:20:49

I went through some eye opening experiences 6 months ago that are similar to what you are seeing around you. A lot of my own problems I found were centered around my job and my career choice. My life was based around my Mon-Fri 8-5 schedule. In reality 8-5 was more like 5:30-7 because of getting ready and the commute. It didn't allow me the freedom to be the person that I wanted to be.

I changed all of that, and now although I am making significantly less money, I feel 100 times better as a person because I am doing the things that I want to do and having some success with them. As a result my health is better and my mental state is better. All of the pressure is gone. After spending 6 years doing a thankless job for a paycheck I can now say that I do the most rewarding work for a living!

Hope everything works out for the best for you!
» spcbrass on 2007-02-28 04:19:53

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