You whispered to me, more than once, to never leave you. I stayed.
You told me later, that what you needed, was for me to be stronger. But what I didn't realize until it was too late, was that I needed to do that without you, and you needed to do this without me.

Now I have been pushing myself past boundaries of strength I never thought I could.

I have been living each day by my own principles. I have been seeing the beauty of the world through my own eyes and it makes me smile. It makes me smile from somewhere in me that belongs only to me, and I will never let that die.

What we were was important.
But what we will become is even more so...

It began longer ago than I would like to admit.

It was in an honest attempt to reach the real thing, something that we both still have faith exists. I know that. Something more than the tragedy of both sides straining so hard to meet a center that was not reachable. Something so climactic, Something that neither of us could imagine, but wanted so much for each other. The only way to get closer to what we both want, is to learn to let go. Let go...

The beauty of each moment will never grow ugly in my head.
The sanctity of what was, will never be voided. By either my words or my thoughts.


Silence.


Silence can hurt, but this pain is a kind of dignified pain that will lead to growth. I believe this is the silence of respect. And I am thankful for such a quiet strength to prevail.

I hope in the future, my words will not cloud my vision. I hope that I will learn to be honest, most importantly, with myself.

At this point in my life, this was the best thing you could have done for me, whether you knew it or not.

"I was happy in my harbor when you cut me loose
floating on an ocean and confused.
Winds are whipping waves up like skyscrapers
and the harder they hit me, the less I seem to bruise.
And then when I find the controls
I'll go where I like
I'll know where I want to be
but maybe for now I'll stay right here
on a silent sea."

I hope you are doing as well out there as me.

Nice layout.

Wow, this is a long entry.

I'll start reading now.

You write in riddles.

Quit it.

I think that for the most part you're honest with yourself because you believe in your rationale. You may not know everything, but the things you think you know... what was I going for?

You're honest with yourself because you believe in what you know to be truths, even if they may not be.

I'M GONE IN A WEEK.
Chump.
Call me.
Or else.
» Dilated on 2007-05-27 09:29:28

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