I don't know what I'm doing in college. That fact makes me laugh sometimes.

I like that I feel somewhat on my own, and that my choices about how to live are limitless at this point.
but with each choice the number of following choices divides in half... and it dwindles on down the line until I'm stuck somewhere. And I've gotta hope that where I end up is where I will be happy.

It's a gamble.

I am either going to switch my major to film, or minor in it. Depending on how my portfolio review this spring goes.

I think it will be good to have a background in graphic design in the film industry. A lot of the same concepts are applicable.

I haven't told my parents yet because they want me to minor in something usefull like Business or Advertising.
But that sounds so boring. I may take a class or two in business... but I dont want to minor in it. Such an excuse for a mundane life, I think.

My biggest problem is caring. it's hard for me to care about school.
And something like business is NOT going to help that happen. I need to stimulate myself.

And I need something MORE than these basic drawing and design classes I'm in right now. The people I've met through it are cool... but I hardly ever feel inspired.

I think I understand the basic priciples of gestalt, and the components of a good composition. that's why I'm here. I understand the science of it and I enjoy it...
now let me APPlY it.

so that's my school rant.

My social life is improving lately. I enjoy my friends in class but our relationships don't seem to extend past that. I don't mind much, though.

That is all probably cause to my social efforts all being aimed at Matthew. But honestly I am getting better. I think we are finally getting over the addiction stage... and into something much more... freeing.
Honestly I thought my moving an hour away would cause this to happen months ago... but we're just both such addictive personalities.

Well, I have plenty to do...
so I will bid you adieu, nutang.

Caring about school is TOUGH.
» ikimashokie on 2007-02-02 09:23:22

Stop complaining about school and do something to change the situation, if you really want it to change.

I think a part of you likes being in college, studying something that you don't wanna' study. It gives you a ready made excuse incase you fail.

You have way too much potential to not try
» Dilated on 2007-02-03 12:03:35

It's seriously ridiculous to do laundry, it's 1.50 to wash and 1.25 to dry. :/
» ikimashokie on 2007-02-03 04:44:04

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