If she weren't writing in blood
She'd bring him her jokes, a new liver,
And a shovel for the mud.
If he were not knee-deep in mud,
He'd bring her his drugs,
He'd get her a typewriter.

I like Metric... I like any kind of music that relaxes me now a days... it's so hard to find time to do that... relax.

I also like this journal. Because no one I know in real life reads it 'cept Jon. Hi Jon. Jon is like my source for unbaised perspective.

I had a strange nightmare two nights ago. I was a prostitute. And I was in this room with a guy and he was... gettin nudie on me. And I was going with it until the last second. I started crying and I was saying, "I can't do this, I can't do this!" The guy was pissed but he left me... and then the head of the department I worked for was having a "chat" with me (you know the kind of uncomfortable boss chats that are always them scolding you).. she was saying " you know, I dont know what your problem is, we are a clean facility... we screen all customers for STD's and use condoms. Plus you are on birth control." And I was crying still... "No. no, that's not it" and then some other prostitute looked at me and was like, "do you have a husband?" I just stood there, drenched in tears, and said Yes.
I wasn't sad while I was crying either. I was just... crying.

what does that mean?

got me.

aside from that.
My relationship with Matt has been a long one... and serious too. but over the past yearish we kinda just fell into this... routine based thing. Where we just hang out all the time and mostly watch TV, movies, sometimes we even GO to the movies, and have mindblowingly awesome sex. But we don't talk much... And I will admit that it was fun just being goofy and mindless together.. but I'm ready to start talking again. And I think it's getting there. I get upset at him sometimes because he's always tired and just WANTS to do mindless activities... and I guess I need to take into account that he IS always tired because he works 45-50 hours a week, goes to school full time, and hangs out with me, and hangs out with his brother and their friends... and he has to do all this for no one to get upset at him. *sigh*

Soon I will be busy too. What with portfolio review coming up, the increasingly pressing need for a job. I won't be able to afford my housing payment here in march.
I think I am going to start pulling the phone numbers off of those flyers about "someone take over my lease for $X" Not only do I hate it here, and is it a shit hole... but it is too expensive for what it's worth.

Anyway. that was a nice lengthy rant but I needed it. thanks nutang.

Matt is wearing himself too thin.

And dorms are too expensive for what its worth. Especially when I have pay for food included.

Hi Ashley. I'm as unbiased as they coome.

Hahahaha, your prostitution ring has a head of maintenance.
» Dilated on 2007-01-25 11:17:28

Update more. Yeesh.
» Dilated on 2007-01-28 03:50:07

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