.. it's only a day away! Finally one more day my friend.... Good bye sweet summer.. hello drama! Call me crazy but I actually missed school. It's hard to believe that this is my last year! Wow where has the time went seriously!? Tommorow I'm gonna walk into those school doors as a senior.. it seems just like yesterday I was walking in those doors as a freshman! I'm excited for school to start yes.. but I'm also sad.. I can remmy the day that I wanted to be outa school.. I couldn't wait... now that's it's getting closer and closer.. I'm not really sure if I want this day to come. All of the the friends I've made.. school has actually become something that I like to do. Going to school has become a routine thing for me.. and after this year.. it's not going to be.. I hate when my routine gets messed with.. what am I gonna do!?

On a happy kinda note.. I'm not really sure if it's a happy happy note or what yet.. Ryan is comming back. I'm still not sure how to take things. I knew this day would come.. but I was really hoping it never would come. He's my 1st love.. and I'll always love him.. no matter what.. u know what I think about your first love.. I don't think there is ever an ending to one!? I really don't... atleast there doesn't seem to be an ending to mine. I've missed him don't get me wrong.. but I thought I had everything together.. I thought that I moved on.. and just boom... I was proven wrong.. he's really comming back. I thought that I'd wake up today.. and realize it was just a dream.. but It's not... It's real life.. He's really gonna be in school at Troy. wow.. that just proves how much I thought I had everything under control. How am I gonna look at him without wanting him to hold me in his arms like the old days? What do I do if he looks me in the eyes and tells me he loves me!? I'm not sure if I'm ready to deal with this. I was really hoping this day would never come.. but It's here.. and I gotta wake up and smell the coffee. I can remmy everything about Ryan.. what he was wearing when I first saw him? the first thing we talked about... the first time he kissed me... the first song we slow danced too.. everything. And that's something that I can't clear from my mind.. I've tried. It just doesn't seem to work.. Oh well I guess it's gonna take time for me to deal.. and with time I'll learn what to do.. I just hope it turns out alright...

Well I'm out... Lovingz!

**Let me know if you have anything with me**

Homeroom: Mrs. Jannone (Room 153)

S1 Prd 1 Professional & Technical Writting(Mrs. Mondock)
S1 Prd 2 Bio Ag(Mrs. Nelson)
A lunch
Vo-tech: Medical Office Assistant (Mrs. Capwell)

S2 Quarter 1 Prd 1 American Government(Mrs. Edsell)
S2 Quarter 2 Prd 1 Economics (Mrs. Edsell)
S2 Prd 2 Applied Math 1 (Mrs. Laue)
A lunch
Vo-tech: Medical Office Assistant (Mrs. Capwell)

I was not lookin' forward to school. Hope things work out with you and Ryan.
» Dilated on 2005-08-29 04:00:31

omg..Jackie...we have no classes with eachother..:( Maybe we will have lunch together or something...I can't wait to see you tomorrow...and like so excited but sad b/c it's our last year............So I guess I'll cya then...and maybe Ryan..lol..so I LUV YA SOO FREAKIN MUCH!!!!:):):)
» JuSt_Me_8806 on 2005-08-29 06:27:57

yeah,
i think i have professional & technical writing with you. maybe we could sit next to each other on the first day of school. i will be wearing NOTHING!!! lol.
» zero_jak on 2005-08-29 09:53:00

hey jackie.. i hope everything went alright when you went to see tim tonight. Ya know, i hate to see you hurting like this and being confused all the damn time.. but hopefully one day you'll find someone that loves you just as much as you love them! Good luck w/ everything hun... see ya in lunch. And o yeah, sorry about the grapes! muahaha lol. i love you roono!
» babygirl1206 on 2005-09-01 07:31:25

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