one year ago.. i've come a long way since then.. i just wanna thank you for making me a better person.. i just wanna thank you for fucking up.. i just hope some day that i will come upon some body that will take the spot that you held in my heart... so far no one has EVER compared to you. i can't believe i put up with you for so long when we were together... every one kept telling me i deserved better than you.. and now i know that i really did.. the stuff that you did to me was unbelievable! how could you sleep with her!? you and i were meant to be.. we were suppose to be.. atleast that's what you always told me.. you always told me that you loved.. that you wanted to marry.. that you wanted to have a family with me.. i see how much your word is worth now. i hope your happy and i hope your life is going good. i hate how i have to love you but yet hate you sooo much.. i just wish i could just love you instead of both of them.. but we all know i can't do that out of fear of getting hurt by you again! i went to hell and back for you. But yet I still love you.. i wish there was an explanation of why i did.. but there just doesn't seem to be one. i guess your first love is the hardest to get over.. and i don't know if i'll ever get over you. *sighs*

"So much for my happy ending
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...

Let's talk this over
It's not like we're dead
Was it something I did?
Was it something You said?
Don't leave me hanging
In a city so dead
Held up so high
On such a breakable thread

You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
And all of the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh..."

_{I love you RMA}

ahhh......i remember what day it is...the day i tried to kick ass but you held me back :( anyhoo...chrissy didn't make it through work......i'm home....like, 3 hours early...haha...oh well..i can't help being sick....i'm gonna try some chicken noodle soup, see how it helps...i might go to the dr. tomorrow....*eek* i hate the drs...haha...love you muchies my idolette
» ChrissyBabe1718 on 2005-08-09 02:28:18

CHICKEN SOUP WORKS WONDERS!!!!!! my throat isnt so pained....also im drinking raspberry tea...so if you have any raspberry tea or chicken soup. eat/drink it biatch!!! haha..love ya girlie
» ChrissyBabe1718 on 2005-08-09 03:00:11

yes, life is short. it sux. that is a good song. i hate being emo, you should listen to ska. it makes you feel better.
» zero_jak on 2005-08-09 03:14:22

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