as if my drunk friend calling me a whore and a slut this weekend werent enough to make me feel bad, now i have my other friend complaing about me. listing for hours all the things i do that annoy him only to tell me there are still many more. fuck, if i'm that much trouble why bother? he tells me i'm a bad friend and only think of myself. yells at me for not calling him or not wanting to hangout with him and my sis when they are. calling works on both sides, so i shouldnt get all the blame on that one. of course i dont get any credit for the times i do happen to call and he happens to not be home. gee that must be my fault too somehow. and i'm sorry if i still feel like a third wheel sometimes when i'm with them, whether its their fault or not. i've been ditched by too many friends when they've gotten someone else that it just tends to be a sore point with me. so rather than let it get to me yeah sometimes i do avoid the whole situation all together. and god forbid me and desi fight sometimes i just would rather not be around her that weekend. she does alot of stuff that bothers me but she doesnt seem to give a damn about it cuz i tell her and she does it anyways. unfortunately that means i dont hang out with them both, but i cant help that he chose to date my sis, thats just one of the consequences that comes with dating one sis and being friends with the other. sometimes you'll get stuck in the middle or excluded.
*sigh* atleast my drunk friend i could blame it on the booze talking. all i have for the other one is that he just must not like me or that i have soooo many things wrong with me i'm too much trouble to stay good friends with. either way this has only helped to make me feel more like shit during an already shitty start to a week.

i hope he's satisfied. it takes alot to make me cry but he's accomplished it, this not being the first time either.

i'll prolly regret this lil rant later when i've cooled off, but for now it feels good. especially since i dont have anyone to yell at it about right now......not in person anyways, and typing this several times over agian would just be too much.

fuck drama.

don't let drama get to you. it's a waste of your emotion.

cheers,
sank
» thaitanic on 2006-09-13 09:56:54

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