sometimes i wish i could keep these thoughts private. it sinks in sometimes that i have no idea who you are. i don't know your name or anything.
as much as i try to convince myself that it won't stay like that, how can i know otherwise?

i don't want to be strangers. but as well as you know me, it isn't fair that i know so little about you.am i really supposed to consider talking to a helicopter a relationship?

i want to walk away from you so that you know what you are doing isn't write and it isn't how you should treat me.

not getting to know me because it will fuck up you perception of a hobby is not a valid reason not to show. it has been so long and i am not a toy.

how am i supposed to trust you when you won't even show your face to me? what am i supposed to pick you out of a crowd? i ma near sighted and scared to approach someone that isn't you. how does that make sense?

i am so over trying to appease you just so you will talk to me. i am so over you following me everywhere but never show up.

i am afraid that when you show up again, i will be so mad or sad or dissapointed that i won't notice. i don't get how you expect to argue in court but can't muster up a hello to me.

i don't ask you for the world, but a response would be nice. i feel like i am wasting my time with you because you aren't ever coming.

i don't recognize you anymore. you are everywhere and anyone.

this whole thing is ludacris and i am probably a fool for waiting. and no, offers are not pouring in, but you make me feel like an animal at the zoo.


this is not going well for me and i am not getting any closer to you. i just want a date, or even a conversation. that is not too much to ask and i don't see why you regard it as a bad thing.

i am not a shy person. and i am not a coward.

i don't want to be a stranger, and i don't want you to be one to me. but you make it so that what i want doesn't matter and that is not right.

a relationship starts when there is consideration for both perspectives. i am not a science experiment. i don't even know what your goal for spying on me is. i would tell you if you asked, but i don't even get that chance.
you are not showing me you care.
i mean the only time you tried to talk to me was when you were mocking me. i wanted to yell at you. and i should be angry with you.

will i move away before you notice that you missed the opportunity with me? is that what it will take for a change to happen?

this whole thing makes me angry. i am not your toy. how could i be anything more to you?

if you don't take it now, the next time you try, i will be blind to you.

if this is a game to you then maybe you don't deserve my love. what are you going to do when i do walk away?

all the things that you are doing now is helping me leave you. your silence give me no choice. my heart will be numb to you by the time you grow some balls to talk to me. i am trying to warn you.

you are supposed to be the rational one. and yet with me, you prove to be a hypocrit. or a coward.

this whole thing is so childish and unecessary. i wish i could give up. no matter what i do it isn't me that has to stop but you. but since you won't leave me alone and won't ring my doorbell, i have no choice but to ignore you again.

i have over 650 emails from you as junk mail, but not one direct message. i know it doesn't have to be like that so this is all you. i am not the crazy one, you are.

i am okay with you being crazy and i was willing to try, but now, i feel like i just want this to end. you are not coming and i just want to put an end to hoping you will.

if you aren't showing me that you care about my feelings now, i can not believe that you can love me the way i need you to. and worse, you are not willing to try.

see this from my point of view. you are a stranger to me. and you are unwilling to be anything else. and yet, you expect me to care about you.

do you honestly expect me to be okay with that?

i am tired of talking to you through a computer. i am tired of begging for any response from you.

i wish i had a way to push me from you like you do to me. that way all the following would be for nothing.

i need to stop because i am about to be mean.

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