I know that the site isn't all the way back, and that nobody's going to be able to read this until Dave finishes fixing. But I'm ecstatic, to be truthful. I'm gonna go ahead and copy stuff from my xanga now. Yup.

Sunday, December 02, 2007
I make a big fuss because nuTang is down for a day, and now I forgot what I was going to post.

Dang it.

Friday, December 07, 2007
When I said nutang was down for a day, I didn't realize that it would be SIX. /sob*

Hughghgh. I'm so restless and lonely and just not happy right now. And the only person who's remotely good for me to talk to is in an emotional crisis that I, quite frankly, am afraid of accidentally taking advantage of. Not that she wants to talk much, anyway.

I take a measure of pride in my photography and my manipulations, and I think it sucks that I never hear much about the good ones. My mom doesn't count, especially because she doesn't like the time I spend on them anyway. They're all over my myspace, my deviant art, even a few on facebook. Nothing. Here's my latest:



I want something to happen. An emotional change, a spiritual revelation, a mental surge, maybe even physical danger. I need something to happen.

It may be depressing, but I'm not worried about dying. It's not like I hate my life or anything. I'm just not afraid of death. If I was about to die, I'd try to finish a few things before I left. Because that's all that would matter, really; the people I'm leaving. Especially my mom and brother. I don't think my mom would cope well, really. No telling what Sean would become.

Psshhhh. I guess I'm just not looking forward to much.

Sunday, December 09, 2007
I just realized that I don't have a lot of close friends to speak of. I have lots of friends, surely, and I love them all.

But there aren't any people I can talk with straight up. There have been people. But they're all gone. Unreachable. Cold.

That makes me feel so alone.

Monday, December 17, 2007
Well, absolutely nothing is going on right now. Pretty much. I guess that the stress isn't what makes me update. It's nutang. COME BACK!

OH, well, I did have a very busy weekend. My first all-nighter, too. On Friday I went to a friend's youth group lock out, which was AMAZING but very loud. The service-type thing was very touching, though I didn't agree with EVERYTHING the guy said. At 12:30 ish we all piled into two buses and drove 30 minutes to "Zuma Fun Center," which is basically a two story play pen for little kids and a go cart track out back. Except the video games were mostly all free. Crap games like "House of the Dead 2" are actually fun with infinite lives. Also if you're playing as both guns. You can get some serious gunslinger stuff going. /oh yeah*

I was up until 8 Saturday morning. 25 hours of wake-full ness, not counting the 30 minutes sleeping on Suzzanne's butt. Ahahaha.

It was worth it. The all night thing, not sleeping on her butt. Though it was pretty comfy. ;)

I am totally back on my normal sleep track, too.




OK. That's that.

Sheeeeesh, going through withdrawal, much, eh?
» ikimashokie on 2007-12-23 01:16:10

About the all nighter youth group lock-in.. what did you disagree with?


I know what you mean about missing Nutang, too...

Post more of your art on NuTang. Or else.



I'll cry.
» Dilated on 2007-12-23 09:29:49

Filebox is my school's storage. They give us a nice 30mb chunk of space, I figure I may as well use it if I'm going to pay them 12k a year.
» ikimashokie on 2007-12-23 12:25:14

I'm not afraid of dying either, it's more of the "how" that worries me lol.

I had no idea Nutang was so close to your heart
» The-Muffin-Man on 2007-12-23 02:18:04

I'll probably end up posting a private entry about our discussion sometime in the near future, I'll let you know when
» The-Muffin-Man on 2007-12-23 02:52:52

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