Finding... a comfort in life and death
Saturday. 3.19.05 10:08 am
Finding Neverland was sooo.. powerful. Especially in the midst of this week when over 10 people we know have passed away, and the numbers just seem to be growing (3 more died yest), the whole life/death... how to life, what ti imagine, what to face, and just a whole new perspective on Peter Pan story was awesome. The one part tht sticks out in my mind was tinkerbell, how she drank the poison to sasve peter pan just like how the mother was practically killing herself to keep her children alive. Also the comment made about captian Hook, how we are all running away from time, which made me think that perhaps captain hook is really afraid of time, of death, not just of a stupid clock because the alligator ate it. The emotion provoked in the movie almost mae me cry and if anyone knows me, they know I don't cry at movies. It's definitely one ontop of my list now.
Yesturday was so beautiful outside. After my test, lab, class, went to work, lunch, back to work, have come to the conclusion that chocolate is a factor in my headaches/nausea which means I am gonna try and stay away from it for a while.
Then I SPRING CLEANED! and that includes packing away everything I am bringing home over easter (2 big boxes and two big clothing carriers) and vaccuming!!! (for the second time this year), then went for a lovely walk for an hour with Katie outside and had some wonderfully intuitive talks about such things like mothers, guys, self-growing up, attatchments, school, meeting new people, future careers, families etc. It was sooo nice to connect to someone like that againand ontop of the walk (which weall know I LOVE my walks) in the perfecto weather, I came back inside sooo happy.
Took a shower, and started SCRAPBOOKING! Then Katie came in and roamed around on my computer "why don't we ever hang out in here?", then Kate and I went to dinner as Katie left to go home to 3 funerals/viewings. Oh man I almost forgot! I got to kiss a suffed cow and sign a paper today for a guy in a fraternity, he was really sweet tho and I was the first one to do it so I didnt mind. Reminded me of "head" from key club ash. Then of course Kate did it too.
At dinner quote of the evening: "u didn't say hi to me, u were looking right at me and didn't say hi, for that u get this *unsips my black/white jacket thingy*" "I didn't have my glasses on, sorry" "well, hi then... btw u look sexy like that with ur jacket open, leave it like that" "*as person walks away zips jacket up realllly high* Then after dinner, went to marketplace for some cookies and off to the movie where we got moved from McKay to BSB and almost didn't fit everyone in a seat. Saw Finding Neverland, almost cried, walked back and went to the gym to burn off some emotional stress about all these deaths and the movie for an hour n a half.
Came back feeling gross and exhausted enough to just call it a night, talked to the roomie for a bit, and went to bed without a care in the world, more I think cuz I just didn't want to give a shit about petty things, not that I didn't still have compassion about the day's goings ons.
Now I am here, waiting till 10:30 so kate and I can go to breakfast and then cheer the waterpolo team on in their AA champs game at 11:30. This weekend have tons of work to do.
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