Saturday. 2.12.05 1:11 am
WOW! First of all... I freakin LOVE my friends here! They made this experience over the top worth it. It was enough for me to feel empowered, learn so much and have a change of perspective on these issues from doing the monologues but ontop of all that... I really felt loved tonight. Over the past two nights pretty much everyone I knew saw the show: Jared, Trenton, Eddie, Ryan, Kara, Kate, Katie, Big B, Amanda, Becca, Krista, Cindy, Jodi, and I am sure more ppl I don't know yet. So EVERYONE loved the show! And every agreed that more guys should've come, cuz the ones who did, were on the floor laughing, crying (some dude came up to me and thanked me for doing my monologue about rape, I think a lot of the men who were crying during some of the monologues were war veterans who knew the horrors of acid burning and abuse as a "tactic of war" and just really appreciated it. For those of u who think it is a joke, u didn't see it, ask any guy and they will tell u what it really means.
After the show all my friends came down to give me hugs, gave me flowers!!! and helped me take pictures. Then we departed and went to Kate's car to wait for Steve, sang in the car, then went to Esting Park, my first experience. I had had their cookies with Key Club. We were seated in a corner isolated from the rest of the place and definitely deserved to be kicked out.... soooo much laughing, singing even, called each other and Big B in the bathroom to make sure he didn't zip himself, almost choking, quoting moans from the monologue, seeing a bunny, belting outlout "i will remember you" "my heart will go on" "i feel like a woman" "ur my inspiration" "circle of life" in the car on the way home.. and then! I saw my dorm door!!! I couldn't stop gushing for 5 mintues cuz my girls and big b had decorated my door with signs/posters!
I got to work with some older women too, who were just so inspiring in their continuing approach to life... they said this would be a life changing experience, and it truely has been. I acted, something I never did before in my life, embraced myself and even for a little bit accept me for me and be proud, got to share all of this with the people around me who I care about and who care about me...
The only downfall is that I am so hyped from caffeine that I went into a cleaning OCD spree and then proceeded to get ticked off... now I dunno where anyone is. I cna't fall asleep tho so I dunno what to do. I wish the show didn't have to end tho, I really hope we do it next year too. I am crossing my fingers that we get video tapes of the show.
We just spent 3 hours playing Cranium, sooo much fun! I had this ESP moment where katie jsut said... "i'm a singer" and i said, "Bob Dylan" (hah tom thought of u), and bam it was right! No offense but Ryan and Kara's constant ridiculousnes.... maybe it is me but I find acting helpless and always dramatic just to get the attention of ur bf is a bit annoying. I mean u already have him tied around ur finger, and milking it for all u can get just gets on my nerves. Ok well it is now 3am, and I am still wide awake, prolly will wake up in 6 hours for breakfast. goodnight
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