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So my computer is messed up.. and the RCA er whatever hasn't called me back yet... pffff. So I am down in the computer lab for now. Thie keyboard is definitely a lot quieter than the one I have, which means I am not a loud typer Amanda, it's totally my keyboard. Uh so let's see... what has been going on? Well last night was... not what I planned. I got out of class at 11 and spent the rest of the day chillin bc I seriously have no work to do for any of my classes. Watched some of Monty Python and the Holy Grail with the roomie but fell alseep for some of it. Then dragged my ass to the ARC and I must've been high on something cuz I definitely ran 3.3 miles. When I get cold (like I was in the dorm) I get this energy rush which is also why I am so hyper after football games. hahaha woooh, anyway... so after my run, came back took a shower, talked to the rents online and decided to screw being afraid of gettting raped and walked to the ski lodge to meet up with Amanda at the bonfire. It was a nice mildly long walk, in the dark, under some poorly lit lights, on a paved road for the most part... and so I get there and find out they had gone to Founders, so I walk backkkk, talk to Jillian for a bit, and walk back to Bard. I was planning on going out the Ghost Riders dancing till 2am but of course, go figure this girl gets a headache once again and so I had to lay down. That was a bummer but got to catch up with some missed folks, and of course enjoyed riding the telephone lines with the awesomest. *sigh*

I still am not sure what will happen in even a year from now, with school, with me, with anything. I was thinking last night and I don't even know if this is what I want to do with my life anymore. I really want to pick up a double major in psychology but that means staying an undergrad for 4 years instead of the hoped 3, and that means more school, longer time to put off things, get out in the world, but it also opens up other doors that I am pretty sure I will want to explore during my career. I want to help people.. and I am trying to figure out where I can be of the most and best service. 1) helping people get back into their daily lives ex: learning how to walk again, 2) helping athletes with prosthetic limbs get back into the game 3) dance therapy 4) working with people with eating disorders, building self esteem thru movement 5) specializing as a psychologist in a disease such as Dissociative Identity Disorder 6) dancing, teaching and choreographing 7) having my own physical therapy business where I can incorproate alternative methods of medicine, psychological factors to healing, and run it how I want 8) traveling the world to under developed countries practicing medicine there.. I think those are the biggest ideas floating in my head and really I want to do them all. There are so many things in this world that I want to change, and I guess that is my goal in life.. I just figure I can do some of it thru the field I have chosen. But if I stop and think what am I really passionate about? It is people... the many frusterations I have about society and how it is affecting the welfar, physical and mental health of my generation and definitely generations to come. So what degree does one earn to do that? to change the way the world sees itself and to change the way it runs itself? I don't think there is one, and all I can do is try to help and teach those around me, combat the social norms and stigmas that have not only gotten to me but run my family and friends' lives too. Am I passionate about dancing? of course. Am I passionate about medicine and the brain? definitely, but I want to use both of those things as a vehicle for change. For changing the way our society views beauty, values, morals, importance, money, etc. That is what I want to do with my life. So how and where do I start?

Today I have nothing planned until 7pm when we are going to see uhh I'll get back to u on the guy's name, a hypnotist.comedian. Then if I still have nothing to do they are showing Radio outside or inside depending on the weather at 10pm. Hope all u Penn State kiddos are enjoying ur weekend home in Hershey, I miss you all. Feel free to drop a line sometime.