I can't express how much I hate her. Everything about her I hate with an unknown passion that I possess. Anything and everything that gave me happiness and was the pride and joy of my life, she takes away. Steals away more like. Yet for no reason either except to make me feel horrible and to make herself feel better. Everything is just so damn annoying about her now. I mean, it was that way a while ago but now I can't even really respect the person. Why am I only a few of many to see her like this? I wish more ppl would, even if they have to go thru the same shit and pain she has put me thru. It is bad to wish that upon someone else, but they won't find out any other way what a selfish, bitch this person really is. ughhhhhhh. I never knew I could dislike someone so damn much. I hate that i feel this way, but if anything, I learned that I need to recognize that this is what I feel and that is ok. Whether or not I have justifications really, well we'll leave that up to my mind.

Dance marathon recap (brief)... very cool. not big turnout but made more $ than last year. Activities that we did do turned out really well. AI was a huge hit. Scarface was awesome and so was Back Seat driver. prep for the marathon was crazy and during it I played volleyball and brusied my arms. I tried to stand the whole time but only made it to 9 1/2 hours of pure standing, plus the times before I started counting. Decorations were amazing! Tried to have a good time while one of my best friends was hanging all over and out with my not so recently departed friends. Seems I've been replaced once again, no doubt due to some gossip of shit that they conjered up at one of their festivities. ewww, no they can't use that fuckin word, it is too awesome... no festivities for them. More like cult meetings. There, that is better. Wow I am in a bitter mood today. I don't know if it is bc I have not slept in 28 hours or if it just hits home every time this happens. I know I need to let go a bit, but seriously, whyyyyyyyy do u have to all gang up and take away the most important person to me? That just sucks. It was liek u were testing me to see how far u could go without me blowing up or showing any sign of dislike. Yea well, you got me and that is not goo bc that means u have the power. So this weekend I worked on not giving u that power, and while I did very well while in the situation, I am doing very poorly right now. I should go to sleep. later all.

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