Tuesday. 12.16.03 7:37 pm
I was browsing thru my old entries from another site i have, and if anyone ever wants to know me really well, go take another look at those, cuz man! I am amazed at how my mentality has and hasn't changed, how my goals in life and dealing with other ppl haven't changed very much, and how darn sad I was last year! Here are some favorite entries:
MY WISH LIST:
I wish that people could talk about their feelings, and when they finally do they aren't bashed for it.
I wish that there wasn't so much poverty in the world
I wish that I could understand all that I apparently cannot.
I wish that everyone could tell me everything cuz i truely want to know
I wish that I could have more nights like last and more conversations like friday's.
I wish that I was more motivated... and when I took more risks like people said I should, I got results.
I wish my skin wasn't such crap... or my eyes so weird ... or my nose so tiny that my glasses fall off... or my legs so short that I have to role up capris to make them pants.
But even though I wish all of these things, they don't stop me from loving life and loving all of you.. because friends make all of these imperfections not matter, at least I have you
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How come it is so hard to tell someone how much you want to be with them? Is it the thought of rejection? The thought that you aren't good enough for them? The thought that you aren't their type? Yes, yes and yes, I say! Why am I so damn shy? Isn't it worse to go wish people could be themselves. Open up and not feel like they will be rejected for who they are. So many of us pretend to be who we think the rest of the world will like. Then we hide so much about ourselves, and don't feel like we can ask for help, because "no one knows who I really am". If I could wish for anything this year, it would be for my friends to be able to be who they are. Know that I will be there, and accept them no matter what comes with it, because I care about THEM
You make me laugh/happy without even trying, and you don't even know it...and i wish you did.
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