Last night, I asked James to call me before he went to work. It was really nice to hear him - more than usual, for some reason. But now I can't get back to sleep. I'm not going to McDonald's, though. I am becoming disgusted with how I look. It's not even just my body; it's my face, too. I would join a gym this paycheck, but since I'm bringing James up here, I'll need to wait another two weeks. I guess between now and then, I can work on eating healthier.

I'm actually craving a salad.

I'm checking my BoA account. Okay, for the first time ever, a debit I made to my account cleared the same day. Something I bought yesterday cleared yesterday. Weird. Good thing it wasn't in one of those instances where I couldn't have money in the bank until the next day. I also see that something showed up and left. It was only a couple of dollars it seems, but I have no idea what it was. !! Nevermind, I do. It was $5-something.

I'm going to put a To Do List on my journal since they never seem to change. v.v I said that I would be on top of things when I got back to Petersburg. I'm ashamed. Some of those need to be knocked off within the next two days since I'm not working and I'm off tomorrow, too.

Did I tell everyone that the white guy I went on a single date (Putt-Putt and dinner) with last year and thought was 28 is actually 39? No? Okay. Just thought everyone would like to know that.

I'm not feeling too good. Like, the last couple of days have been weird. I'm starting to feel like I'm losing interest in some of the things and people that I like most. It's not that I don't care, but I feel... dead? I care, of course. I take great notice to it, but I feel like I can't do anything about it. It's like there are no up's and down's no matter what sort of situation is brought about. I'm sure there's a word for this sort of feeling, but I'm not so sure what it is right now.

I wonder if they're going to play that darned Outkast song all week know. Jeesh. I haven't heard it yet, but I bet I will within the next few days.

I don't like the tattoo on my lower back anymore. Grr! Never thought that would happen. I wish the design wasn't as bulky and thick and was more... curvy and thin. I also wish it was bigger. Maybe I can find someone later (way later) to do something to it. Of course, I'd lose weight, first. x.x

Looks like I may have something to do later today. But, again, I do not feel like leaving the house. I've bailed on him two or three times already. I don't think it'd be right to do it again. Ah well. I'll see. I'm not up for hanging out, honestly, though. I'd rather see Anna or something if I did go out. I'm not so keen on welcoming new people into my life right now because it seems the more I let in, the more I have to leave alone. I'd rather just not bother with worrying about if someone's really a friend to me or not.

Lucid Blur: Just so you know, I'm black.
Luvsgothgirls: I figured that :)
Lucid Blur: Really? How so?
Luvsgothgirls: well based on your name
Lucid Blur: lol, Tammi?
Luvsgothgirls: I haven't heard of many white girls with that name :)
Lucid Blur: Are you serious? lol, I've never known a black Tammi and just a few Tammy's.
Lucid Blur: That's weird.
Luvsgothgirls: sorry :)

He's from Los Angeles. What the hell?! He can't be serious.

AOHELL SUCKS!!!!!!!

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