Yup. I just got off of work. Man, there's something wrong with me. It's like the withdrawals I was having are still there. haha. God damn internet addiction.

So, at work I knocked over four bottles of tiki torch fuel. I just walked straight into a stand of them. No one saw it, but it was embarrassing. I've been quite absent-minded all day. I'm not even sure why. It's like by the time I realize that I'm day-dreaming, I forget what I was thinking.

A customer told me today that I have an unusual friendly smile. Good thing, I suppose? She said it with a smile. Someone that comes in frequently told me yesterday that I was the friendliest cashier there. If they keep it up, I might actually feel bad leaving that store to go back to Virginia. A lot of the customers talk to me like I'm a woman. I mean, I am physically, but... I don't know what I'm trying to say. It's just a weird transition - getting old.

I'm anxious to get back to Virginia, but I really will miss some things here. First off, I'll miss broadband. I'll miss living in a big city. I'll miss some of the quirky things that the people at my job do.

James called during a rush. Jessica answered it and put him on hold. After I cleared out the customers, I walked by Jessica and she told me I had a call on line one. O.o Yeah, that's rare. I'd told James not to call me at work because I'm always busy answering phones and multi-tasking and the store only has three lines. But he called to tell me that he got the GM job. I was happy for him.

He wasn't as excited as I expected him to be. He said he wasn't happy because I won't be here to share it with him or something to that extent. *sigh*

I felt bad this morning when we woke up because he really, really wants us to work and I just don't have the desire to. I don't want to be with James - not one bit. I do wish we could've fixed what was there over a year ago and maybe there is some sadness with that, but really, I don't want him that way anymore.

It makes me sad to see how that hurts him, though. He's doing a great job of trying to work things out with me now, but I really wish he would've done that a long time ago. Really. I appreciate it now, but I would've really appreciated it before when I had those sort of feelings for him.

Now. I'm going to make a couple of phone calls, or maybe just one. :P Then I need ta feed mah bellay.

<333 Jason Mraz and his talentednessity <333

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