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I have had so many ideas for my future, and over the years they've changed. Some were drastically unrealistic (ex: going to a private art institution in California at $30,000 a year) and some were under my standards (ex: going to ECPI). I have a new one:

Going to Virginia State.

I've always said that I wouldn't attend a historically black college because I've lived in a black city all of my life and I've always thrived diversity. I do still, but it's not about that anymore. I need to quit being so concerned about my surroundings and focus on what's really important: my education. If I don't have that, no matter what college I attend, I won't ever live or work in the type of place I'd like.

I'm considering this greatly. I think I'm going to base my decision of returning to Petersburg upon my acception to this college. If I don't get in, I'll get an apartment through the housing authorities in town, here in Wilmington, and work while going to Cape Fear Community College. If I do get in, I'll move back in with Mom and Grandma, and register for the Spring '06 Semester. I think these both are quite realistic and achievable.

I've already discussed this with Mom and I think when I get home, I may discuss it with Grandma. I'm not so sure, though. I may just see if I get in before telling Grandma anything since I wouldn't ask to move back unless I'm accepted (and I receive enough financial aid to cover my tuition). She really doesn't approve of what I've done, so if I say I may do something that she'd consider very smart, and decide in the end to not do it, it'd make matters worse between us.

Mom is willing to help me with the financial aid and application stuff. Bad thing is...

We both will have no idea what we're doing.

Sometimes schools aren't very helpful in the process of getting in (this excludes Richard Bland College), but hopefully, it won't be so hard. I'll talk to Anna about it. I need to anyway. I need two letters of recommendation and one from her mother would be... FABULOUS, especially since she's a teacher. Hopefully, she will do it for me and I think she will. ^.^

I didn't want Peggy (my aunt) to know about me moving back, but if it'd be alright for her to give me a letter of recommedation, I'll do it. What would be better than to have a letter from a retired professor of VSU and the person who helped me get my GED and into Richard Bland?

But she's still my aunt. Heh. So that's very doubtful. I'll look into it, I guess. They don't have to know she's my great aunt, but Peggy is sometimes surprisingly righteous (in a good way, of course... I guess).

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I worked today from 9 o'clock in the morning until 2:30 in the afternoon after only having three hours of sleep. I have James to thank for that. *adjusts halo* I had to a demo for the first time. haha, I had fun with the erasable markers and stuff. I wish they'd let me do that more.

Oh well.

I really hope I can get into VSU. They have a great Graphic Design program, it seems.

It'd also be nice if I can transfer to the Michaels in Colonial Heights.

I feel like I've finally found my answer and the path I need to take. I promise not to disappoint myself anymore. I'll be twenty-one next April, I need to get crackin'.