Okay, it's not that early...but it's Sunday and I really didn't sleep in much later than I usually do on a work day. I wake up at 6:30am Monday through Friday. I woke up at 7:30am yesterday and I forced myself to go to sleep for a few hours...well, here I am again today, I woke up at 7:30am. At that point, I was like fuck it...I'm up...I'll just start the day a little early. GRANTED, I went to bed at about 1:30am this morning, I didn't get as much sleep, but oh well...who needs sleep? I'll be getting even less of it when the baby comes, so haha...I don't think it'll be too bad. With Brian here, it'll be a lot easier because then we can take turns.

I really have to give credit to all the single parents out there who do it all alone. I think it takes courage and determination because, in all honesty, it takes 2 people to make a baby...it really takes 2 people to take care of a baby...and here they are doing it on their own. I mean, if we were meant to do it alone, don't you think that it would have been made so we could asexually reproduce? Yeah, I'm not going to get into that whole mess, but it's just something to think about.

But anyway, I was surfing around and I saw this website for something called Colorgenics. You basically pick from a series of colors and it will tell you your personality. I did it just for fun and the results were pretty accurate. I was a little surprised, but hehe...aren't we all. I think the thing about it that rang most true to me was this paragraph:

Conditions are rather confusing at this time. You would like to involved with a particular person or a particular situation butyou are holding back. You find it difficult to make a decision.

You are pretending that the situation around you doesn't matter, but the effort of trying to conceal your emotions and anxieties is resulting in untold stress. The existing situation is disagreeable. You feel unwanted and lonely and you would really like to associate with someone whose ideals are as high as your own. You want to be above the standard of mediocrity and this need to be needed and that need to need has almost become an obsession. You are trying to magnify the need into a compelling urge. You would really like to tell the world how great you are but no, you are holding back because you feel that your peers may treat you with contempt. This is a great pity because you have in fact a unique quality of character, but the continual restraint that you impose on yourself makes you suppress this need for others and you pretend you don't really care. You treat those who criticize you with contempt. However, to be honest, beneath this assumption of indifference you really long for the approval and esteem of others.

I can't say this paragraph is entirely true, but sometimes I do feel this way and it's probably pregnancy hormones or something. It sucks being here by myself sometimes and it's just me and the baby...and the baby just likes to kick me a lot, so he's not really any fun yet. Now, give it 2 months, and I'm sure he'll be here and the baby still won't be all that fun (changing diapers, crying, feeding, etc.), but at least he'll be here and I won't be SOOO lonely.

But yeah...other than that, I've just been sitting around. I'm going to look through that cookbook and figure out how much of what I'll need for these cookies that I'm making and go to the grocery store and get all the stuff for it. The recipe in the book makes 48 cookies, but in all actuality, it probably makes around 36 (I like big cookies!) and I think I'll probably need to make a triple batch. According to their thing, if I make a triple batch, I'll be making 144 cookies or so? That should be enough...oh, wait...that's a lot of cookies. I only have to make about 6 dozen cookies and that would make about 12 dozen cookies. UM, maybe I'll just do a double batch. 96 cookies should be enough to give 6 cookies per 12 people...lol...and then still have some left over. GOOD LORD...I'm an accounting clerk and I can't even do math...how pitiful!

Anyway, I think I've rambled on for long enough this morning. It's probably about time I got up and started to do something around here. I don't want to bother Melissa too early this morning, so I'll give it a couple of hours, but then I should get this baking going because I'll probably be baking the rest of the day *sigh*

Well... Cheer up.. At least there's cookies to look forward to right??
» Xboyz on 2006-11-19 11:21:56

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