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listening to: what to do - ok go
mood: strange

too much crap coming up before the end of the semester. i'm good for the rest of this week, but once the weekend comes.. Saturday I'm volunteering to help at Kids Day at the Basketball HOF from 9-5! I gotta 8 hours in to fulfill my ALD (honor society) requirements. I figured i'd just get them all in at once since the end of the year is upon us and it won't get done otherwise. doesn't mean it isn't going to suck! the event goes from 10-1.. so there's lots of prep work and stuff to do, and clean up and all that it looks like, but that's good, i'd rather have some random administration duty than do stuff with kids. i figure, leave the kids to the volunteers that actually want to work with them, i know my strengths would be much more utilized doing something productive not with kids. so yeah, there's that all day, i'll probably be pooped after. sunday i get to start on my legal studies paper. really i should start waaaaaaay before sunday, but i know i'm not going to! i have to do a 5-7 page paper on a current ethical business issue. i gotta find articles and stuff on a company that's going through law stuff and ethical stuff, like martha stewart, enron, tyco type stuff. that should be TONS OF FUN! oh yes!! and then i have a quiz in accounting tuesday, a finance web assignment due wednesday.. i hope erin is going to be ok doing that on tuesday cuz i so don't have any other times to do it!! and then on thursday i gotta go to a silly calandar meeting to put in dates and crap for GSA and PEN for next year. and then the economics extra credit assignment is due on friday which involves finding an article and writing at least a page on 6 or 7different topics.. yeah thats probably not going to get done! :) and then friday night i gotta go home because Saturday my mom's parents who live in Florida are up. I was supposed to go to PRIDE in Northampton that day, but I can't now becuase I gotta go home. They'll be up again in a couple months for someone's wedding, but I always see them for like a day when they're up.. They're mostly coming up to see my uncle Tony who had a heart attack a few weeks ago. They're all planning on heading up to my house for a get together bbq deal. it should be thoroughly exciting and thoroughly un-gay. :) erin w's suggestion: bring your grandparents to Pride! my response: uhhh.. yeah.. no! :) so im kinda bummed about that. i haven't been to that yet. i was supposed to go last year, but i went up to orange the day before to get nina and we were gonna head there together, but i ended up staying home and being gay in practice instead of in theory. so i've yet to attend one of those shindigs. ah, there's always next year.
hmmm the boston gay pride march is may 15th.. we'll have to see about that.
i don't have stats all next week :-D yay! hehehe.
i woke up this morning with the poster thats over my window hanging from its bottom 2 corners, so it was like out straight from the wall, it was kind of strange and cool, so i took a picture of it cuz i like taking pictures of lame shit with my digital camera. and when i got back from my shower 20 minutes later i was glad i had because since then its just been hanging inside out by its last corner :) (yeah its still there, i'll just wait for it to fall all the way and then leave it down for a while and debate putting it back up cuz im lazy.. and may as well let it keep its dignity and fall on its own terms!)
i know this is all boring dumb stuff that im writing but i dont really know what else to write about. im not really doing any less reflecting on life than normal, im just not getting anywhere with it. i just end up going around in circles and it never gets anywhere. sometimes i know i want this, sometimes i want something else, and i dont know what to do with myself. its crazy how one minute you can want something and the next you want something else. it kind of scares me how very easily i want two conflicting things. i'll talk to someone rationally about it and be all set, i know what's best for everyone and what i need to do, and then i talk to someone else and i don't think that way anymore. its madness! so i just chill in limbo because i dont know what to do and i dont want to hurt anyone anymore. am i sucking out for doing that still though? i dont know.
the mole on the top of my hand is funky again.. maybe i should show it to someone before i pick at it this time... perhaps.. but i like to pick at stuff so it probably wont last that long. 0:)
at the rate im going 'not that long' is going to equal 5 minutes...
okay more like two 0:) oops..
self restraint is for sissies!
right.
i know everyone at some point wishes they were someone else, i doubt there's like ANYONE who's NEVER thought that.. but ya ever wish you were someone else in particular? and not like, Britney Spears or something, but someone from everyday life that you were like.. i wanna *be* this person... is that creepy?
i just looked over at my book and i think im gonna go read now. even though that gets me into trouble and i end up staying up all night and not getting enough sleep. 3am max! erm.. well.. maybe 4 0:) I dont gotta get up till 1! hold up.. there's an ITA meeting tomorrow.. well i dont think i count as a member anymore anyway, so i may as well not even bother considering going. to quote scott, "willful failure to attend three successive meetings in a row, by charter, removes you from ITA. I have the unfortunate duty to tell you that one member has already
suffered this fate." how many guesses do you need to guess that its me? i mean yeah, scott does love me, but i dunno, i've only been to what.. 1 this semester? :-D i suck. i really don't know why i don't go more.. i dont get to see scott often.. meh, but its not like i'd get to see him, he'd be running the meeting and talking out of his ass and i wouldnt really get to talk to him and it wouldnt be as good as the good old days. he loves me, he just admit it.
my hand kinda hurts now where i picked my mole...
i heart Ok Go.. they're rad.
okay i was gonna go read! yeah! woo!
buh byes!