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Got a working illusion
In the palm of your hand
Why in the world would you want to lose that?

Clung on to believing
Just as long as I could
How in the world could you fail to see that?

Hasta luego modern guy
When did I cease to see the light?
and maybe you were right
Maybe I�m all dried up inside
Maybe I�m not built for these times
Maybe I don�t know how to live

Lyrics from Why in the World? by Lloyd Cole from the album Broken Record, 2010

Why do I keep experiencing this sense of helplessness, anguish and despair time and time again? Don't think I'd had a good night's sleep for quite a while now.

Maybe we're forever destined to lead parallel lives.

So many what-ifs, and I guess it really is beyond me now to influence any change. Would've loved to be in a better position but alas, my hopes now lie in ruin, shorted by a messy tangle of overarching factors.

Still can't believe I'm actually reduced to leading a hand-mouth existence emotionally nowadays.

The days feel so hollow and the nights so shallow without anyone around.. I so so lament the balkanisation of the myriad relationships we have had indeed.

Should I even be in this world? I'll be the first to admit that invisibility does take quite a bit getting used to. And I'm perhaps erasing myself from everyone's consciousness at a much faster rate than I'd envisaged. My readership figures pretty much point to this conclusion as well. Joy to the world.

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