And it has been a harrowing past few minutes.

I just felt all the fight and spirit dissipating from within; leaving me with a heavy heart laden with fear.. even to the point of abject despair.

Well that's what happens with someone gets too complacent and overestimated the other party's tolerance threshold. Well, it may be due to a combination of factors yet this is the one main spark that triggered the inferno engulfing me.

I.. just can't help but feel like a useless impertinent obstinate fool that brought this upon myself. The void within shall remain there for quite some time yet.

Jos should be shaking her head again.
And for that I'd let myself down once more.

I had tempted fate, and fell a long way into the depths of the dark unknown.

And how things have played out.. so interestingly thus far, almost as though someone up there is out to mock my naivety and lack of finesse in doing things.

Thus for the umpteen time, I am so powerless to change perceptions, to take back all I should have not uttered or typed, so inferior to others.. and so on.

Sorry for ranting >.< Just had to get a few things off my chest that had accumulated over so so so long..

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