Last last not so-happy-post I wish! >.<

In a perfect world
This could never happen



The door to my heart, inner sanctum, emotions
Locked by the very people who were allowed to enter

I never could�ve seen this far
I never could�ve seen this coming

Was forced to waste four hours of my life at Nee Soon Camp auditioning even when I knew that there was no chance at all of going through. William was with me; and we bumped into Liuzhen and Yikun at the complex itself.

A big shout out to JUDY - Thank you for replying and teaching me the way to deduce the notes for major scales.. Though the audition turned out to be purely sight-reading pieces instead of scales.. and I sort of crumbled :/

Seems like my world�s falling apart, yeah
Why is everything so hard

If I ever needed a confirmation of how cuiiii I am, today was it. Having not touched the instrument for i-dunno-how-long, I could not even sustain a full note on an alto. Whenever I attempted phrases, my embouchure just gave way and leaked all the air out. Hence, I just told the accessor, in no certain terms, to just let me get the hell out of there and not waste his time.

Nonetheless, Salut d'Amour's a very very beautiful piece. And I'm glad that at least I could play the first part quite decently.. until the high notes came. >.< Sight reading on an instrument that I'm not familiar with a piece at an intensity that is foreign to me (but not to the rest.. you know how baritone players have it easy for almost every single piece.) is an instant recipe for failure.

Well, I guess today would be the last time I'm playing an instrument. Given how badly I'd deteriorated I will baulk at auditioning for band even after I serve my liability and resume my studies. Maybe one or two performances as an alumni per year would be the furthest I will push for.

My band life is quite done and dusted after six years of making music come alive with so so many enthusiastic and dedicated people.

I don�t think I can deal with the things you said
It just won�t go away

Retro-gated back outside camp into the civilian realm and I was quite glad we got rid of the annoyingly moody female SSG. Wonder why the female perm-staff all so PMS one eh Aaron?

Cougar actually had fun during their SDC trip.. taking photos and having the luxury of booking out on Wed evening with many milling around White Sands for dinner. >.< So early.. still remembered that time we only managed to leave at night..

In a perfect world
This could never happen

Ate lunch in solitude while waiting for messages that never came from so many people.. Lol. Seems to be a trend nowadays. I'd sent out almost twice as many messages that I receive. I'm possibly bugging everyone a little bit too much eh..

Anyways, you would be a cuckold not to have figured out the title of the song by now.. :D

(One of Jos' all time favourites, and it was she who introduced it to me so many years ago.. Haha )

I used to think that I was strong
Until the day it all went wrong

Another threshing floor experience in progress now
I assumed, and took little heed of the small warning signs that flashed ever so brightly. My folly eventually tore the ship of friendship asunder when the hull cracked under so much pent-up stress and agitation accumulated over time by the giant waves I was making.

The little things matter every time in every situation, not so much the big things.
Tough road ahead trying to salvage the wreck and piece it together again.

And it makes no sense
I could just pick up the pieces
But to you, this means nothing
Nothing at all

Hopefully the ship was constructed using the finest raw materials.
And if so.. I wish to turn back time.. literally.


Not staying stationary any longer I pray. Now where's my train back to the past? :D

Now you know where I snapped all the photos in this post

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