Never thought that this period of time would finally come to pass. Ultimately, I have survived mentally, even if its just by a little bit.

Everyone used to say that there's so much time until A Levels and NS come rolling about. When you were young, in secondary school or even in J1, you feel like you have lots and lots of time to burn.

The problem is that time, once past, can never be retrieved again.

I spent every single night of the past 2 weeks reflecting upon my life. So much so that I just started to tear while on the phone. To think that just a few weeks ago I was in the hall taking my A's; and wearing the school uniform for the very last time. Well, it also wasn't that long ago too that I received the SMS that I was posted to HC.

Haha, how naive we were in the past thinking that we could stay young forever. And that the 18th year would never come - at least so soon.

It has not been an easy 14 days. I look around me right now in my room and realised I could have done so much more. I opened up the certificate folder and I concurred that I should have been more hardworking, more.. natural at the subject and not end up with a barren desert of A's. Maybe I should have tidied and sorted out my notes and tutorials since J1. Probably I would give anything just to restart the whole A Level process.

While everyone else is like lazing about at home, working or going overseas, here I am stuck in a shitty conundrum. I guess the only thing that kept me from going insane was the calls. I'm indebted to you and you for tolerating the ramblings of a disillusioned person unacquainted to days without Internet connection, random sleeping times, good food - freedom, in general.

Christmas.. Its that time of the year again isn't it? When you know that the present year is ending and a new one is beginning. In January one would most likely think 'Aiyah, Christmas still so far away, got alot of time to do this and that, to make resolutions come to pass'. Then again, it sorts of mirrors the year I've had.

I remembered that the Christmas period last year was the best one I've ever had, with all the concerts, class outings (Marina Square again close to 25th!), Hcband bbq and band room clean-up (still remembered that we were doing P&C there!); a time when Machu Picchu, Superman and rehearsals at the music room were commonplace.

Whoa, reading the archives made me relive the actual events once more. A trip down memory lane. I had taken so many different roads over the past 2 weeks.

My life story, since 2005, laid out bare over a few webpages. Perfect road-map for planning subsequent or impromptu journeys in the future with just a few clicks.

The past shall remain past; the present will become past, and the future the present. We are all mere passengers of time's momentous voyage, never stopping, never reversing, waiting only for our turn to disembark. What we do while we're still on board, is solely up to us..

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