so after our talk the other day i feel a lot better about things...
today i woke up in a fairly good mood compared to the last week...my hormones have rebalanced (thank gods) and ive been able to dive inside myself. its a bit refreshing. i wasnt kidding when i said id make myself better. i intend to do it. im not ashamed to admit ive got flaws that affect my relationships...but hopefully he can see im trying. :)

one thing i notice at times like these...everyones full of advice...chad said something very wise to me once...things will work out as they should without any outside influences...any advice im being given, while not unappreciated, is nothing i havent already pondered in my head...im sure theyve run through his also.

so work today....was good...but extremely slow....im still not signed off, and i still dont have a shift set, which is extremely annoying since i'd like to call apt guy back to look at one of the places were hoping to get when we move. on the way home i ran into someone i havent seen in years...someone i was sure had somehow killed himself by now...its good to see hes alive and well...and a bit straightened out. he used to worry me a lot.

so theres my day....my heads all over the place today, but in a good way. optimism that things happen for a reason and that i can make myself a better person.

i need to make myself a sleepier person at the moment though...so melatonin and soft sounds it is...gnight all!

I am happy that today was better than before. Things will work out. When you are feeling down.. just play with your baby or see him smile. That use to always bring me joy.
» kkama67 on 2007-04-10 03:05:04

it would...
if i had a baby
» invisibleinkling on 2007-04-11 12:34:10

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