Have you ever being haunted by your past?

Just like any other day, you're running late and rushing out of the house,the stupid phone rings,expecting it must be one of ur screaming frens who wants to know ur excate location,u pick up the phone while mentally goin thru all the valid reasons for being late, only to be greeted by it yes..And suddenly u just went blank for a few secs.(i swear it happened) then everything start to come back in flashes right before your eyes.

if nightmare can comes in another form other than thru ur sleep...this must be a living nightmare.

i have a tendency to shut myself out whenever things gotta do with my past happens.i guess im too ashamed of it and i keep thinking everyone knows.

so then i was given 2 choices.
1. stay at home and feel sorry for myself
2. go out, then come home feel sorry for myself

so in the same manner as i solve my maths problems..i figured..
stay at home + feel sorry = end up feeling awlful the whole evening and night
go out + feel sorry = end up feeling awlful only very late at night

i choose number 2.surprisinly i dun really awlful,too tired after the bowling session.

and even though taurus was telling me about her wedding plans and her current blissful love life...i dun feel like im being less fortunate or start feeling sorry for myself cuz i know things doesnt come easy for her too.unlike others who rub their happiness into ur skin..i can see she's truly happy, and just wish to share it with me.yes i can tell the difference between sharing and rubbing it in dimwits.

i figured no one or no fairy godmother is gonna fly over my weeping body to save my day.im still down to myself.and maybe its because of something i read today

Being happy is a choice.And you can make that choice everyday if you want to." ::by this hollywood actress whos name im shall not reveal cuz she's kidda bimbo to me and naming her might affect yer way of looking at those lines lol::

i'm not so sure being happy is always a choice... some of the times it is though
» Zig_Justice on 2004-10-25 01:15:58

hmm i guess it all up to individuals yknow..everyone has different perspectives and i respect that.i wish theres someone out there who sell the happy pill.lol
» incomplete on 2004-10-25 02:16:21

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