Met up with Ue on wed night, kind of a last get-together before she leaves for australia on sunday.Went beer drinking at holland then down to phuture which turn out to be a disappoinment.Its fucking packed,for a moment i felt like im in a rugby game, was jam packed and i gotta push my way around.*bleahz*

Something UE said to me that day has been lingering in me. I asked her whether she saw any changes in us this time she's back. She said no, don't think any of us have matured.(aww!)She feels that kj is still playful and im getting more unrealistic.(stunned).She said i've stop maturing since.

I was surprised but not shocked.Shes almost right, just i didnt realize it until she told me right in my face.Im turning into an esacapist.

What the defination of mature?
::From the dictionary::
a. Having reached full natural growth or development
b. Having reached a desired or final condition
c. Of, relating to, or characteristic of full development, either mental or physical

I like to think i've hit full development till i stop developing? lol

Girls lately mature too fast, they are thirsty for life, and never seems to look or think their age. For me i wanna escape from the claws of 'growing up', or should i say i choose not to face whats being dump unto me by our surroundings.I wanna be a kidult, eastern johnny depp.hahaha.I wanna laugh my life away.I love a laid back life, not having to think too much or anything too seriously.My mum never pressure me nor stress me about landing a high-paying job.She just hope i won't end up as a sales girl. lol.

I hate the rat race, the material life, pity the over-realistic ppl like they pity me, dislike having to make plans ahead or heh my life,hate having my achievements judge by my grades and income instead of the no. of great relationships i had with people around me, and the no of people ive helped and changed throughout my life.I hate those stupid aunties who ask my mum hows my grades but in fact is doing a metal comparison of their daughter with me.fuck does ur daughter love you as much as i love my mum? compare this u idiots! I dislike self-proclaimed mature guys who thinks they have gone thru half the century and is uninterested to hear what i have to say.I cant stand office with white lights,standing in a fully packed lift with white collar-shirts at 9am, or rushing for the train at 6pm.Hate not being able to spend quality time with my family because i need to be at some stupid meeting with people who might be thinking of having sex that night.

My entires are getting senseless lately.lol and more spelling errors.
I guess there are 3 types of people whom after read this will think:
1.wat a crappy blog
2.she's the immature one here trying to act 'substance'
3.heh.this type of people won't be readin this cuz they've long close the window half way thru reading.

haha well i don't think i fit under any of the 3 catagories at the bottum of your entry. hehe and yeah you seem to be having more spelling mistakes... oh well... it's a blog, that doesn't matter.... And yeah I agree with what you are saying about the "material life", it's really all pritty pointless... meh... just do what makes you happy...
» Zig_Justice on 2004-07-30 01:51:16

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