withen all of our wishes throughout life, you never realy look back to what you miss from the past. its a shock to see how much you would have liked to have that toy a little longer, or that RC car, you never look back apon the past unless somthing bad had happend to you. theres always somthing that haunts you for a large protion of your life. some longer then others. but what if the one thing that haunted you was that "thing" that you wish you still had? it becomes so very difficalt to forget somthing so tragic in your life. but its even more impossible to fogive that object that betrade you, wether it be a dog or a trutle or even a sibling or loved one. some thing that you cared about had not even given you the opportunity to express your self to it, or ignored you all to gether. how would one get over such things? is it honistly that difficalt to find that one thing in this world that would actily love you for you, or is all just a farce? can we not just live a happy life? or dose everyday have to be torturous, no matter how hard we try. i will admet, i have spent my hole life trying to please others, and i have expected nothing in return. but yet i see all thease people giving nothing to others and thay get all thay have ever wanted. is that what life is realy about, taking all you can and giving nothing in return? is that what this world is like? is that what we sould do. cause if so i would rather rot in hell then to live in this inmorral world, if there is one persion, one thing in this would that can actily see compleatly through the diseption this world has casted into sociaty, then please, find me. i would love to meet you. one true good soul that would beleave, and love one for who and what thay are, and would not change them to there liking. some one that would be there and suport them selfs and others through there tough times. and would fight for the things thay beleave in and there loved ones. is that so much to ask in this world? i know its all a test. but for goodness sake, isnt everyone intitled to love another? shouldn't we all be loved by another? then tell me where is all the love gone? just another day in the world, just another day to search for one to love. in the end. we all find that one, that will die with us.