be for all of this i used to dream of you, be for all of this i used to hope for you, be for all of this i used to be in love with you, but now as i look out to the world i had with you i wonder was it all worth it in the end? i wonder to my self should i have done all that i did? even with all the pain and hate, all the suffering that i did, did i still deserve what you did? was it honestly necessary for you to do what you did to me? was it the right thing for you to do that to me? was it right of you to even think of such a thing? why could you just be honest with me? why couldn't you just tell me the truth, told me that you no longer loved me, why could you just tell me that you wanted to be with him and not me... you think that i would have become angry? do you think that i would have freaked out... no i would not have even if you would have told me the truth, yes i would have hurt, but i would still have loved you more for your honesty then for you to go off and cheat and steal what was not yours, just tell me the damn truth and i would have been just fine... but no you had to go behind my back... you had to fucken lie to me... you could not just tell me "hay... things arnt working out like i thought they would have... no longer love you like i did be for..." but you had to go behind my back and fuck me over like that... what did you have to go off and do a disrespectful thing like that? i wish you would have told me the truth... i wish that things would have ended up different. but they didn't, instead of us becoming really good friends, we ended up hating each other, and thats not what i wanted... i wanted us to be able to be there for each others hard ship... but instead you had to lie to me like i was just some little kid that didn't deserve the truth... but little do you know that i ended up better then you... in the end i became the make you always wanted but now I'm no longer there for you to thrive off my up bringing... now, you have to pay the consequences of your actions, instead of having a real man in your life. some one that is going to do something with them damn self... you end up with a little boy that has nothing going for him self... so now that this is all sead and over with, when i get to the end of my road i will have more in my self then most people will dream of... you have no clue where I'm going in my life... you have no idea the things I'm going to achieve. this is my world now... i have full control over what happens to me... do you know what your going to do with your self? do you know were your going to be in the next 10 years? how about 2? i dought it highly... your not getting any were if you dont start to straiten up your act and quit acting like a child and get on with your life and stop hangen out with those little kids you call friends cause all there going to do is hold you down and keep you from achieving your dreams. good bye to you, i have nothing more to say this time. i hope you eventually learn what i have learned... live is not about how much drugs you can do... not how much alcohol it takes to get fucked up... or how my guys you can fuck in a life time... its about how much good you can do with your life... and how much you can change another person... i hope you learn... i really do learn...