if i were to let go of you love it would be suiside, if i were to just let you go, i would lose it all... there is nothing in this world that would kill me more then to see you leave. i would not let it be, i would not just let you go like that. fuck that. i dont need to lost you to somthing like this. to death do us part and i live by that, no matter what. im sorry that things have happend the way thay have. and i expect to fix this shit, i sould have never put you thow the bull, that i have congerd up so well. i have broke 2 of the bigest pet peaves that yo have i cheated and i lied. i sould have never done ither of them. im not going to come up with some exuse. oh your 300 miles a way. no i did it cas i thot i could get away with it... but i could not get away with it, and in doing so i almost lost you. the best thing that has happend to me and i just about lost you. i saw the other side i dont like it. one mans heaven can be a nother mans hell. haven will never be what i want it to be with out you. you are my heaven... you are my dream... my reason for caring. if not for you then i dont think i would be were i am. im glad that you have given me this opertunity and im glad that you have fogeven me for the pain, in such i will promess you one thing and one thing only, you will always have my heart, no matter what happends. no matter how much you may hate me you will always have what i have always given you, and that is me.

for ever yours
Terry Lee Carlson