i sould be happy right now being mine and arlines 3 month anivery, and arline just came out, just on sunday, but im not, i sould be updating with a happy note, but im not, i look at life right now and think in the back of my mind, what happend? ONE FUCKEN MISTAKE, WITH SOME ONE I THOT I LOVED, god why? i sould be happy but im not im losing the one thing that means my life to me, im losing everthing i have worked so hard to get, the only thing i would give my life for, the only thing that i have ever truly loved, and all for what, a kid. im losing the love of my life, cas i wanted to get a little happy, just for the hole 10secends of pleaser, i would give my life just to see her one last time. just to be with her one last time, i would give everything, i have just to be with you again, just so i could hold you again. its all becase of one fuck up in my life, and i guess that i have to deal with the consacuences of my actions, i just wish that i could have you by my side, to help me thow the pain, to shear the glory with me when i do good, to see the life i have given grow to be. and to make just the same as i have, to give one a life, and for both of us to be prowed with what we have acheaved and for the both of us to show each other that life is not as bad as it seams, and show eachother true love, cas you are the only one i will ever love again, think you thow for everything you have done for me, you have showed me what even in life ther is true happyness, but like i have sead ever good thing has to come to an end, i just expected it to be death that brings it to me, not life... well its better to love and lost then to never love befor, think you arline for everything you have done for me, but if this is the end then, i want you to remeber one thing, no matter what you will always be loved.

"im writing this as if it was my last, think you for the memroys and times we had, Remember me as if I never went away Because I see you all another day"

Terry,~Zero~ later all.