I now have to start living my future and not just preparing for it. I know what lies ahead of me is scarier than I could ever imagine. But it is the adventure of a life time. I finally found my purpose and now my only mission is to expand on that. I know that going to England later this year is only a small taste of what is to come. Still I need cash.... about 13,000 dollars......anyway i know beyond a shadow of a doubt that the money will come.....the only thing left to conquer now is my own selfish desire.....nothing new though....the age old battle of spirit against flesh has never changed. And now I must take action so my spirit can win.....I know this sounds crazy but I have found true happiness and joy and the crazy thing is that I got it from doing something that I never thought would be fun.....in one word ......Christianity.......True Christianity none of the hypocrytical bull crap that I used to do of saying one thing but living another....no that was just pure foolishness.....but now .....now that I understand what and how I must live and walk every single day for the rest of my life I am happy.......At first I thought it just to be a bunch of rules....no fun.....but now I see it is the best thing I ever did.....See someones soul always longs for something....Its like we got a God shaped hole in ourselves and we try to fill it with things....for me it was partying and drinking and guys.......but that got me exactly where I didnt want to be.... Stuck.....depressed.......in one word alone.......but i wasnt alone...jesus was always there beside me through everything waiting for me to call out to him.....and when I did it was amazing.....anyway this is just a proclimation letting anyone and everyone know I have just one passion for the rest of my life and that is Jesus......everything else i almost dont even give a rip about.....I see it like this.....Either I am storing up a kingdom reward that will not fade away an everlasting thing that comes when I get to heaven.....or if this Jesus thing is not true, Although I know beyond a shadow of a doubt it is true Im just saying for those sceptics out there, at least I lived my life for a purpose and when it is all said and done I will have had purpose to my life even if it was only to achieve happiness......Any questions, arguments, coments, etc......email: [email protected] there and only there will I respond

thanks for the comment
yeah i can see that it has totally jes changed ur life 8) thats really cool. i hope it has that same effect on me.
» your_punkrock_princess on 2005-03-20 07:59:44

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