So I realized almost all the entries on my blog are really about how upset I was feeling that moment. It's as if feeling upset wasn't enough and I went all the way, focusing on them and writing them out. It was as though I put a magnifiying glass on my wound and studied how I hurt from inside out. Then I realized, what a waste of emotion!

Something I read yesterday made me realized that I was being so pessimistic most of my time. It made me missed the old me. The girl who was passionate about love yet was so naive at that time. But being naive has is good sometimes, it makes you dare to dream of the impossible. It makes you dream of something normal people wouldn't dream of. Most importantly, it gives you hope.

But eventually after getting hurt so many times, my side of naiveness has toned down a lot. Unfortunately, it has toned down my optimism too. I didn't dare to dream big and always see black as the only color found on earth. I always think of the worst so that I would have a back up plan. I guess that's where I bred my pessimism unconsciously.

However, we all know that all things in this world is made up of more than the seven colors so I shouldn't find any excuses of seeing the world in black color only. It's just not right.

Anyway, back to the article I read. I know I should buckle up myself and be a more positive person. Of course, I guess once in a while, I'll still use this space to channel out my negetive thoughts before focusing on the positive ones.

Thank God once again for teaching me that everything happened for a reason and I will learn every lesson behind them. There's simply nothing that I can not handle in this world.

Bring it on!

Happy news of the day:

1. I received a letter from my penpal (yes, we actually prefer writing like our forefathers did despite with the technologies like phone and internet.

2. Mum was concerned about my dinner and she even heated up the meals for me.

3. There'll be a Halloween BBQ Party tomorrow and I can't wait for it.

4. I am glad that I am feeling well today even though I was feeling a bit emotionally unwell.

XoXoXo

i also have penpals. it's fun writing and receiving letters.
» renaye on 2007-10-29 09:26:33

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