Saturday. 10.28.06 11:21 pm
There are so many thoughts racing through my head right now. It's kinda hard to pin down just one. I feel just genuinely sad right now. Please don't say, "That sucks!" OR "I'm sorry, things will get better." I know they will, and I'm not looking nor do I need that kind of talk!
It's not that I'm trying to be mean though, don't get me wrong.
I just, I don't know. Confused?
Think about something you spent a long time on [even just a month or a week, because that can be considered long, too] and it turned out to be a total waste. Think about how much energy and time and emotions you put into that one [or more] thing/s. Think about how much you enjoyed the time you spent with that thing and how in love you were with that one thing.
Now think about how you would feel if it were to be demolished.
Pretty sucky.
Then things get worse and WORSE.
Then you "get over" it.
And yet, months later, it still upsets you. Because YOU loved that thing YOU put effort into it and yet it was all sweeped away.
And now EVERYTHING reminds you of that THING. That stupid fucking THING that you absolutely HATE HATE HATE and still love.
I probably won't be on NuTang for a while, I'm sorry if I don't return any of your comments.
I know the feeling. I hate it. It's so stupid, but it really bugs the heck outta you.
We won't begrudge you. You never comment on mine anyway. ;P
» Silver-dot- on 2006-10-28 11:57:25
Death leaves a heartache no one can heal, love leaves a memory no one can steal. ~From a headstone in Ireland
» JMC on 2006-10-29 11:30:43
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