love shack was just shown here n finally ended. why was that the dumbest reality show ever? SOOOOOOO STUPID!! good grief can they import some of the good and NEW shows please so i'm not stuck watching this crap and dubbed spanish soaps all day. they send all the reject shows to asia, geez. (i hardly find crap like Charmed worth watching). i think the IMF has something to do with it, sanctioning our entertainment along with everything else because of the philippine's huge ass debt. at least they show recent oprah stuff or else i'd go on a shooting rampage. oh yes and the disney channel is forever updated which makes me happy too.. it's just scary that i like cartoons again. da heck?

oh you wana know what reality tv show i DID enjoy? the bachelorette. yeah i'm a fan ONLY because you can see the difference between how a girl conducts herself in the midst of having options versus a guy (The Bachelor I). reality tvshows that have females with the power to choose are more successful because girls BY FAR have a better ability in picking the winner out of a lineup of 20 dudes than guys do. guys in all reality tv shows just look for booty and are led by their wang. they're less able to discern who the better choice is to have a lasting relationship with because Willy does the choosing.

same moronic crap girls have to deal with in real life. which is why I am a lesbian. HAHAHHAHA just kidding.

anyway, it's really funny because lately i've been hearing about high school friends getting married, having children, getting ready to or having settled down especially with graduation just around the corner. when my whole educational plan got derailed one of the things that really depressed me was how my ability to settle down was pushed back. it threw my "timeline" off. now i look back and i think DANNNNNNNNNG what the heck was i thinking?!?!?! it strikes me as crazy how right my dad was about a lot of things not that there's anything wrong in aspiring to marry your high school sweetheart soon after you land a job after college (to pave the way for that family and minivan)... but it's just not me!!! i can't imagine even wanting to take on such responsibilities before i travel the world, do meaningful work, perhaps write a book and .. learn to drive? AHHAH!!

my point is that the highly coveted american dream isn't my dream after all. everyone is called to serve different purposes in life and what we're made to believe we want doesn't mean it's really for us. i just wish everyone else would agree with me on this one! i think people would be in a happier place to realize such things about themselves even if it means going against conventional wisdom. (see what time off does to you?)

so yes... huge HUGE revelations in the year 2004 ALREADY! my goodness! i'm very grateful. family, as usual, trips once in a while but i am praying really really hard that we all get on the same page finally. a house divided does not stand and this i know for a fact. i'm not really that worried becuase i know prayer works and to underestimate what GOd can do for a person's life is not good...like a fatty insult. really though, i never thought things could turn out so well but they have! thanks God for blessing me!

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