well so last night mike read yesterday's nutang. at first i didn't want him to see it because i was scared of what he would think, but then i realized that he wanted to know, and he is someone i can tell ANYTHING to, and he is always supportive. i can't stop thinking about him, and how we might still be together from when we dated in February, but Shawn was involved then, so it was awkward. however, shawn is no longer, and i could totally see mike and i together. mom said i'm allowed to ride places with him wherever and whenever i want, and that is a big plus. yeah, shawn might have a nice body or whatever, but ya know, he thinks he is better than everyone and thinks he could kick everyones ass when he can't. all shawn cares about is looks and strength and that is very immature and wrong. i'd like to see shawn TRY to bench what mike can. ha. plus shawn was a big pothead at one time, and ya know, guys in school right now might think it's "gay" to be smart and CARE about grades, but when they are out of school and can't get a good job because of how they messed up in high school, they will care. mike, he knows how he wants his future to be, and he will go after it, and that's a good thing. he's just great, and i hope something becomes of him and i again.

god, i wish i could come right out and tell him how i feel, but i would rather tell him to his face, and that is why i cannot wait until we hang out again, because i have to tell him. it's killing me that he does not know everything i am feeling and he keeps trying to get me to tell him, so i will when we hang out. chances are that won't be until Saturday after my detention. god, i miss him.

ahh
great point...about like...how people may think its gay to care about school and grades and everything but I find a guy who has a plan and is determined a turn on. :) ...btw, I'm sure Mike knows by readin ur nutang how yah feel but..:) I'm sure it'll all sound beter in person
» Manda103 on 2004-09-06 08:03:57

well he only read the one, and right after he read it he goes, "tell me more" haha, that's just how he is, and oh, i love it. i'm missing our relationship in february so bad.
» chells420 on 2004-09-06 08:18:27

haha
aww...=) hopefully things will work out then
» Manda103 on 2004-09-07 04:07:44

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