we start school, then within the first two weeks i am sick with hay fever. it sucks, and i hope i get better for tuesday so i can actually have fun in school and not be miserable and having to sneeze and stuff.

shawn seems to think i care about him and tab, when i don't. i no longer feel jealous that she has him and i don't, because if they last a long time like he and i did, she will start to realize that he really isn't all that great. what i did to him with the mike thing was wrong, but i was sick of him always expecting me to be home and he never let me do anything. mike is very sweet and would never do that to me. i've known him forever. i think i'm falling for him again, and vice versa, but that's okay, because i know that this time, shawn wouldn't get in the way of mike and i's happiness. he's just too fantastic. so, shawn can kiss my ass because when him and tab don't work out, and he comes crawling back, i will not be there because i am not putting myself through all his bullshit again.

..he's so incredible.

** EDIT @ 11:54 pm **

i talked to my katie webster tonight. i miss her so much! she has such power to be able and make me do things i am scared to do, like tell mike everything i feel. telling people things like that is actually EASIER for me to do in person than over the computer, because then they know my TRUE emotions and i know theirs.

Mike. he is so.. precious. i can never get mad at him even if he does make me kind of upset, i could never yell at him, or anything. he is too damn sweet. he has got to be the most genuine guy i have ever met. he is so understanding and i am going to miss him so much when he goes to college. at first, i thought i only liked him to make myself get over shawn, but it's much more than that. he's just, amazing. i never really get embarrassed in front of him, and i can be myself with him and his parents, and they are also very nice. dating someone doesn't just mean liking them, but their family and friends as well, and his parents are awesome. god, for no one being perfect, i'd sometimes like to say he is an exception to that. but he's definetley VERY close to perfect. *sighs*

hi
i wanna be a friend im 15 also form hell, tx. look at my blog to see. and rap is very gay.
» gotenkz on 2004-09-05 10:56:52

haha, okay i will add you, just because you also think rap is gay. oh, i want to live in texas. :(
» chells420 on 2004-09-05 11:07:18

chelle
i think we have the same thing...I am sick as hell, my nose is running or else stuffy and I keep sneezing and i ache all over. it sucks...I hope yah get ebtter...and I do too. good luck on the Mike thing...let him know how yah feel. :)
» Manda103 on 2004-09-06 05:30:00

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