and he said he is on his way to Clarion. this kind of makes me laugh because he is not going to be able to drive there all the time. hey, whatever.

as soon as he said that, i felt crushed, but then, i went to do my hair and i saw my very pretty necklace that mike gave me, and ya know, as wrong as it may be, he was really great. even still, he randomly shows up at my house, like the one day he showed up and i had just gotten outta the shower, but i put my pajamas back on, and had my hair in a towel and stuff, and i didn't even care that he was here. it wasn't uncomfortable at all. i highly doubt i will ever date mike again, but he is like, my best friend. shawn is just being stupid right now anyway, but i still miss him.

amy made me tell her all of the silly, but fun and sweet little things that shawn used to do and i thought she was going to cry. i talk to her every single night for like 10 hours (okay, maybe not that much) because she just makes me laugh.

i'm afraid to have another boyfriend because i'm scared that i would only be going out with that person to help get my mind off of shawn, but then again, i don't know. it's one of those things that you should know, but you don't, and i hate that. anyway, seeing shawn in school everyday is going to be both sad and funny. it will be sad for obvious reasons, but it will be funny because i will look at him and then think about what everyone told me about his girlfriend, and i know that it's true.

..lust. it tricks you every damn time.

aww chelle
it sounds like you're hurting more then you're willing to admit! :( Im sorry about everything...dont worry, everythings alright in the end...jus be patient and keep your head up! and remember that I love you!
» Manda103 on 2004-08-28 08:56:01

yeah, that's how i am. i'll never admit how bad it hurts, but it does. thanks, i'll try to be positive, but it's hard. i love ya too :(
» chells420 on 2004-08-28 08:57:17

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