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so I haven't written since September, and a lot has changed since then.

I have 3 weeks left of my freshman year in college, and I can't wait for them to be over. Next semester I am transferring to Mansfield University, which is like 15 minutes from my house. Lock Haven is nothing like I thought it would be. The only thing I love about it is living with Kelly, but she is also transferring, so Lock Haven's only plus won't exist. I never thought I would go to Mansfield, but I have become one of the million Troy kids to do so.

I have just changed as well. The best way I can describe it is like I heard my grandma tell someone else, "She's changed, not for the better or worse necessarily, she has just changed." Like most freshman, I have gotten out of the high school mentality that I must look as perfect as possible. I have also figured out who is important in my life and who is not. I realized that I am not over my ex boyfriend, and for the first time, I am actually dealing with that. I have realized that my parents aren't worth me stressing over, and that one day I can leave and not be under their thumbs anymore. I have come to the conclusion that I have just grown out of my parents. I know anyone the reads this that is older will just want to smack me, but I have become more mature and more intelligent than my parents. Its the truth, they just can't control me anymore, honestly don't know how. I have also realized that in the near future, it will be best for me to just cut ties with the extended part of the Estep family. They are not worth my time anymore. I do not need to be put down and insulted by family, thats what enemies are for. With of the this relationship stuff, I have come to the conclusion that if you want someone in your life, you have to work to keep them there. Since I am a good hour and fifteen minutes away from home, I am constantly texting friends and family to stay in touch.

I can't believe that so much time has gone by. I look outside and its sooo nice out, and I can't believe that 3 weeks from now, I can go home for good. I never realized how much home meant to me. But Troy is such a part of me, and I am just not ready to leave it behind. My entire Rogers family lives in the same small neighborhood. They are my foundation, why would I want to live anywhere else? I can't believe how far I have come. I look back to last year and remember what I was thinking and can't believe that I ended up here. I guess I have just grown up. I no longer think about getting far away, I think about saving money and hassel by living at home. I realize that "the college experinece" is not something I need, because that mostly entitles getting shitfaced on a nightly basis.

I guess this is pretty much all for now, I plan on writing more in detail about things of the past school year, but they really deserve an entry of their own.