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i fucking hate people. nothing on this planet pisses me off more than people. nothing. if had a choice of being a leper or dealing with people i would be a leper so fucking quick. oh man the list of reasons i hate people would be so long. people lie. all people. dont give me that i dont lie shit. fuck you, you lie, and you are lying again by saying you dont. its the worst when you trust so few people, and those few people lie to you. as a few events in like the last month that list of people has dwindled down to all of mom, dad, and jen. thats it. theres people i dont know who have no reason to lie to me but thats different. people you dont know will lie to you just to throw you off. i personally dont give a fuck so i generally have no reason to lie. i have no regrets of anything i do, i FUCKING THINK before i do things, especially when they involve other people. and if i do something that may hurt someone else ill fess up. fuck all the lying and trying to scurry out of taking responsibility. 8 year olds do that when they break a lamp because they dont know any better, or they are doing something they know they shouldnt be doing. adults on the other hand know better, and they know what they should or should not do. but they still go against the knowledge they gain with age and act like retarded 8 year olds. fantastic. i just plain dont like poeple. and heres the irony. the people i do like are the ones that the rest of the people dont like, or judge, or cast out, or feel they are somehow different or better than. no ones better than anyone (save child molesters and rapists and shit) if you have money, no one cares. the only people that act like they care are trying to get some of your money. so you THINK youre prettier than this chick. even if you are it doesnt matter. it probably just means the ugly girl has a better personality. and when you're 50 and those looks are gone whats gonna matter more? see i love the truly outcasted people, not these new-age hippies (also known as goths or punks) because its all the same crap. one person has a different idea, then its the cool idea and a whole new crowd follows it, so then its not different, its hip. hip + Eeeee (as in ewwwww yuck) = hippie. now i understand the language. back to the point, these 'so called outcasts' are not what im talkin about. im talkin about the guy in the wheelchair that people laugh at, or the dorky chick that drops her shit and no one helps, or the blind guy, or the mentally retarded guy that people mimmick to feel better about themselves, which is one of the dubest things ever. prove how cool you are by immitating the actions of a retarded guy who cant help the fact that he is doing those actions, but you can help the fact that you do those actions and do them anyway. whos the true retard? the continuation of the irony is that besides my antisocial ideas im relatively normal. i dont dress or look in any extreme. ive got a little money, a decent car, i look fairly attractive (no brad pitt but no ralph nader either) and i could fit into most 'trends' or categories of people. and the ones i dont naturally fit into, i can act and lie as well as everyone else and make myself fit in. but why? why would anyone ever be something their not? i will never understand. they run out of shit to lie or people to lie to so the lie to themselves about who they are. thats retarded. im so proud of who i am and I wouldnt change anything. i love growing, and learning new things, and trying new things. and its healthy and normal for people to do, more people should do it. but theres a difference between having an open mind and being brainwashed. thanks MTV!!!1!! (for anyone who hasnt caught on the 1 in the middle of !!1!! is intentional to make fun of people, the same goes for any LOL or smileys you may see) and people are so inconsiderate. i hate hearing chivalry is dead, today 3 times i held the door for a woman and she didnt say thank you, one even gave me a dirty look. why the fuck will i be nice and actually do things when people dont even appreciate it. shit like that is just second nature now, like using the turn signal. i dont even go through a door anymore without holding it and checkin to see if someones comin. even if i know for a fact im the only one there. i always use a turn signal if a make a turn or change lanes, even if i know im the only one on the road. 3 in the morning no one on the highway and im using the signal to get off the exit. its what youre supposed to do so i do it all the time and it becomes habit.and people hate doing things the right way. some people dispise using turn signals. some people see me coming to the door way with an 8 foot table in each hand and close the door right in front of me. thanks ass hole, i hope you die of aids. tonight. i also hate people like the ones i work with. at my job it a bunch of 20-27 year old men and all we do is make fun of each other. no one is safe. but its good harmless fun. if your mom is sick, we dont make fun of your mom. if you really love your girl, we dont make fun of gang bangin her. but theres a select few, and by that i mean 1 guy, who loves to dish out mean shit all the time and then he gets all pissed when you make fun of him. and hell make fun of personal shit that he has no right to talk about, but just to feel cool and try to be the center of the moment hell say this shit to get some attention. more often then not his joke will flop, and someone like me will just slay his ass and he gets all upset. listen, if you just came in and youre havin a bad day and someones makin fun of you, i understand gettin mad. but if you start shit with someone and they just respond, you have no right to get mad. especially if they make fun of something you bring on yourself. ill never make fun of a cripple or someone that cant read or something like that (we've had both work there) well id make fun of them but not for being crippled. like john is that but i make fun of him for smoking crack and always being in love with white girls and changing his football team every year. and if you drive an old ass saturn and act like youre big shit with the fastest car on the planet and make ridiculous stories about this 'miracle car' then im gonna make fun of you. there are plenty of real easy things to make fun of me for and ill never get mad. because its either something i cant help, or its something i did that i dont regret. the guys make fun of me for liking the quiet girl whos 'outside the loop' and i dont care. they make fun of me for havin long hair, and liking the music i like, and growing up in the ghetto, and my love for fried chicken, and the fact that i always whack off and play video games, and i never care. im not ashamed of anything that i am. why would i be? if i dont like something about myself i grow and change it. but i dont change it just cause everyone else doesnt agree with it. fuck that. i think shame is the prodict of lies. unless its something like youre ashamed because you tried and failed. no one likes losing (except the goths, "life is a game we all lose, boohoo") but it happens. you just have to learn and try harder so you dont fail next time. id feel shamed if i didnt try again. and fuck having that regret of not trying again. and if you keep trying and dont win, then maybe you just suck. dont lie about it. its a rough lesson, we've all done it. but its better than lying to yourself about it. its like these soccer moms whos kids suck at soccer, and they're all like "GOOD GAME JIMMY!!!1!" fuck that. "jimmy, you didnt give your best effort, i know your better than that, prove it. try harder and be the best" at the end of the season he tries his best and he still sucks, get him playin football, or water polo or somethin. these parents lying to their kids is the worst. i know the idea is noble but its causing more damage than good. i dont plan on ever telling a child of mine that santa claus is real. i know im weird but i was pissed at my mom when i found that out. i felt like she lied to me all my life (which is essentially true) and i wondered what else she lied about. hahaha even when i was 6 i hated to trust people. and like that situation once someone does 1 thing to break my trust its gone. if they lied to you once who knows how many times they lied. and thus: Brian hates people.