I don't know how the fuck I'm gonna get through chemistry until they make more academic classes.

And if they don't make more that fit my schedule better, I don't know how the fuck I'm going to get through chemistry alive.











A friend of my mom's killed herself recently.






I asked Mark to go to the prom with me, but he lives 8 hours away, so he declined.





Just talked to Ryan and don't find myself yearning for him undeniably. Took me two journals, but I got over him.




The only good thing I can see about today.









One of our cats is dying. My parents are over there crying over him, but I'm pretty sure they're crying more about other things than that cat. We haven't had him for very long. Maybe it's just me, maybe I just have started disatatching myself from everything after this summer. Idk. Anyways, pretty sure my dad's crying over what he did to a certain other cat, and I know my mom's crying over Young, her friend who just killed herself.



Or maybe I'm just a heartless bitch and they really are crying over this cat. His name is Spencer but I didn't call him that once because I told my mom to name him Sniper and she thought I said Spencer but I already have a friend Spencer so that would just be weird.






I really really would like to get away from everything. I asked Parker to hang out tonight and he said after he finished his homework he would, but then he never texted me again. I did the grocery shopping as a quick fix, to feel like I was in control, but I wasn't. I'm not. I need company. I need comfort.







Darlin', some things don't work out like they should.

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