Damn emotions.


Back and forth, back and forth.



I want to stay out of relationships forever.
I want to be in a relationship.

It's like a few weeks ago:

I want to kiss Steven.
I feel like I'm kissing my cousin.

I want to end things with Bryan.
I don't want to upset him.



What the hell, why isn't anything ever constant?










Because. God. I want to feel wanted, but not by someone creepy.




Been thinking about Parker a lot. It's what put me in this crappy mood.

Not really. That was a lie.





First week back, it was really shitty. But I hung out with Preston tonight, and he's going back to Baylor on Sunday, and I can think of so many reasons to date him.

And then I hung out with Amy and Rob and they're adorable, then we went to hang out with Kristina and Mark, and look, they're adorable too. I want to be in a relationship like that. I want things to come natural, and not feel forced like they did with Bryan.



Then I went to Sb's and Corina said that now she sits by Parker in some class, and he told her we went on a date recently. Which we didn't. But I wish we had. And I texted him about it and he hasn't texted back. And. Damnit.




He was always like the perfect guy that never worked out. I mean. He's totally chill, I don't feel like if we dated we would have to be around eachother 95% of the time, but I don't feel like I would be neglected. Except that I would. Because he's a dick. But.





AGH. DAMN EMOTIONS.

Well, some girls do like dicks. (Sorry, I just had to say it)

Your emotions might stabilize with time. That seems to be how it usually works...
» randomjunk on 2009-01-10 01:53:27

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